Where has the time gone?
I feel so miserable! Life has just been passing before me. I have been like a zombie these past weeks. I have no feelings, no emotions, no care for anyone. I realized this yesterday, like a stab in the back it felt. I don't know what to do anymore.
These pasts weeks have been non-stop work. Get at 5 in the morning, go to school and be a zombie, after school-run cross country (which has been painful), dance practice, or a club. Get home around 5 or 6, sometimes even 7 or 8 and start homework; more work. Eat and go to sleep, which is not enough!!!! And yesterday it finally caught up to me and I could barely walk (Running about 2-4 miles a day nonstop, including drills plus dancing, does that to you). Not only that but I have no friends; no supprt in my fucking life. I miss all my friends, not those fake-ass friends, but people like Juliya, Junisa, Molli, Gaby, Cristina, Monique, Edana and Eric. I miss you all!!! I never see you!
And even though we got two days off from Hurricane Ernesto and a three day weekend, all I keep doing is work and run. I don't have to time to enjoy the little things in life; to enjoy life fully and live my life everyday. No, I'm just a zombie: no brain, no mind of its own, no life or feelings.
These pasts weeks have been non-stop work. Get at 5 in the morning, go to school and be a zombie, after school-run cross country (which has been painful), dance practice, or a club. Get home around 5 or 6, sometimes even 7 or 8 and start homework; more work. Eat and go to sleep, which is not enough!!!! And yesterday it finally caught up to me and I could barely walk (Running about 2-4 miles a day nonstop, including drills plus dancing, does that to you). Not only that but I have no friends; no supprt in my fucking life. I miss all my friends, not those fake-ass friends, but people like Juliya, Junisa, Molli, Gaby, Cristina, Monique, Edana and Eric. I miss you all!!! I never see you!
And even though we got two days off from Hurricane Ernesto and a three day weekend, all I keep doing is work and run. I don't have to time to enjoy the little things in life; to enjoy life fully and live my life everyday. No, I'm just a zombie: no brain, no mind of its own, no life or feelings.