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so it's november 1st, moving right along. I can't wait until thanksgiving break, I just want a damn home-cooked meal. I miss a lot of luxuries that had been taken away from me when I entered college. I miss just being able to call up a friend and go sit in a cafe or bookstore for hours, or even go out to dinner without rushing. I went home for the weekend, and it was a lot of fun. I hung out with nicole a lot, i miss her so much. we even got to go shopping and chewed the fat at the bookstore for awhile; a place i miss dearly. just walking in her house feels like home and seeing her parents and brothers. It made me miss being snowed in, living at her house for days and days missing school and watching movies on end. Sometimes I miss having a simple life that only consisted inside of my neighborhood and maybe booths corners and ice works lol. skateboarding and fun was all I seemed to care about now that I look at it, but back then, I thought I had it hard. I'm not saying I have it hard now, or I'm not happy with my life now, I guess I just miss things sometimes. I miss long walks and bethel springs. I just constantly feel as though I am on a timed schedule, like no matter where I go, what I do, I am alway racing against time and eventually it runs out for everything. I just that's a main accessory in life. I remember like sophmore year, maybe summer after freshmen year, my main goal was to get wasted over the weekend. not at a party or anything, but just in a basement with a good friend. the feeling and procedure was so much more fun back then. I guess I wore out the mischief behind it.
I feel so drained lately, and misplaced, i don't know why. it was weird when I arrived back to school the other night, when I stepped into the elevator with all of my stuff and walked down my hallway, I have never before felt so much like I was at home. I never feel like that when I walk into my house anymore, but I don't feel as though I am a stranger to it either. I just feel like I play a roll in two different, distinct lives that possess two sets of people and I'm baffled by the fact that it's oh so easy for me to just fall back into each life. I really just miss alex and nicole. I still talk to them everyday, but their voices just sound so comforting. A lot of my friendships I have been establishing here are growing stronger though, and I actually feel like I have made a few good friends.
I've never laughed so hard today when I went to my mega step aerobics class and all of my friends from this certain frat were there and were being forced to do the class because one of the leaders in the frat is a body builder and instructs the class. let me tell you, it was so weird doing an aerobics class with guys haha. what got me is one kid was actually trying, and the others were so confused, it was so funny. well, i don't have much more to write here so i'm done for now.
I feel so drained lately, and misplaced, i don't know why. it was weird when I arrived back to school the other night, when I stepped into the elevator with all of my stuff and walked down my hallway, I have never before felt so much like I was at home. I never feel like that when I walk into my house anymore, but I don't feel as though I am a stranger to it either. I just feel like I play a roll in two different, distinct lives that possess two sets of people and I'm baffled by the fact that it's oh so easy for me to just fall back into each life. I really just miss alex and nicole. I still talk to them everyday, but their voices just sound so comforting. A lot of my friendships I have been establishing here are growing stronger though, and I actually feel like I have made a few good friends.
I've never laughed so hard today when I went to my mega step aerobics class and all of my friends from this certain frat were there and were being forced to do the class because one of the leaders in the frat is a body builder and instructs the class. let me tell you, it was so weird doing an aerobics class with guys haha. what got me is one kid was actually trying, and the others were so confused, it was so funny. well, i don't have much more to write here so i'm done for now.