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so i was all looking forward to spending my last few hours with bobby then crystal calls and says hey wanna hang out so he says sure...not realizing that she meant half hour from when she called we get up get dressed and go outside..he's mowing the lawn...next thing ya know here she is.....now i like her a lot but i don't wanna go home and i wanted to spend my last few hours with bobby sort of alone...maybe run to kohls or hte mall or both...do some shopping or something....
i gotta go home today and clean my room but tomorrow i am going to work with him again since i work second shift on monday..and i'm off on tuesday...how that one will work i dunno..i guess he'll take me to work on monday and pick me up....
i brought some of my laundry with me the other day when i came out so i could wash it...it's all done...now i just gotta decide what to leave here so i have some clothes here when i stay and i don't have to cart around a bag everytime....
he's got 2 more loads of clothes to do and he is all caught up with his back laundry.....
i've felt like crying since last nite and i just can't...i don't know why i want to cry...i guess there are a bunch of reasons....i don't want to go home and leave the comfort of being with him...i don't want to go home and find out why my mom is mad at me.....i don't want our conversation to turn into a huge fight.....
i'm happy...i love bobby...i love spending time with him....i love just sitting next to him or talking to him on the phone...i feel safe and comfortable when i am with him....
i wonder if i looked back on entries about mike i'd say the same things? i don't know..i mean yeah i know i said i loved him,etc...but did i ever feel safe with him? did i ever feel that nothing could go wrong when i was with him? nope...i don't think so...if i said it it must have been when i was still enthralled with everything being new.....tody is what the 21st? that means 2 weeks and bobby and i have been together 2 months...for some reason it seems a lot longer...and i don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.....well anyway...i'm gonna go....
i gotta go home today and clean my room but tomorrow i am going to work with him again since i work second shift on monday..and i'm off on tuesday...how that one will work i dunno..i guess he'll take me to work on monday and pick me up....
i brought some of my laundry with me the other day when i came out so i could wash it...it's all done...now i just gotta decide what to leave here so i have some clothes here when i stay and i don't have to cart around a bag everytime....
he's got 2 more loads of clothes to do and he is all caught up with his back laundry.....
i've felt like crying since last nite and i just can't...i don't know why i want to cry...i guess there are a bunch of reasons....i don't want to go home and leave the comfort of being with him...i don't want to go home and find out why my mom is mad at me.....i don't want our conversation to turn into a huge fight.....
i'm happy...i love bobby...i love spending time with him....i love just sitting next to him or talking to him on the phone...i feel safe and comfortable when i am with him....
i wonder if i looked back on entries about mike i'd say the same things? i don't know..i mean yeah i know i said i loved him,etc...but did i ever feel safe with him? did i ever feel that nothing could go wrong when i was with him? nope...i don't think so...if i said it it must have been when i was still enthralled with everything being new.....tody is what the 21st? that means 2 weeks and bobby and i have been together 2 months...for some reason it seems a lot longer...and i don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.....well anyway...i'm gonna go....