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Well it's me n Sammie's anniversary today.
4 months n 1 week :D Still great together.Uft i don't know.
Uhm....well i've got councelling at 2 o'clock :( don't see the point in going right enough,they just bring up your past and yet that's meant to HELP you? Easily enough when you forget about it,but yet fuck i dunno. Worth a shot i suppose.Might help me,after all many people think i DO NEED help,fuck knows.I don't think i do.Nothing much i can do.
I'm so tired.I've been awake since just before 6.I just sprung right up from my bed n punched my door :S Had a nightmare you see.About my dad,and when i looked at the door i seen my dad :S really just don't know.Then i sat at my window for most of the morning looking out at the graveyard.Then after all that bout 7 o'clock i went out running for about 30 mins.Came back up and looked out at the graveyard thinking just how lucky i really am.I have Sammie,i think she understands me i don't know because i am difficult.Then it got me thinking how much i've gained since last June.I was a millimetre from death,and because i lived i have Sammie.Don't get me wrong i just really didn't wana live after it.Didn't see making the effort with breathing or anything,but then because i did i have Sammie and really it's all i want n need.Don't get me wrong i need friends and i do appreciate them,but when u fall in love,u dont really have time to think about anyone else really.Because u know your constantly thinking about them.I do think about my friends,how theyre doing and things.That seemed really kinda....uhm.....selfish if u like......i dunno im talkin crap more or less cuz im nervous.
Ah well i better head.....otherwise i shall be late.See you all later :P
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........
Karena
xXx
p.s *hugs n kisses for Sammie* grass is green n all!
4 months n 1 week :D Still great together.Uft i don't know.
Uhm....well i've got councelling at 2 o'clock :( don't see the point in going right enough,they just bring up your past and yet that's meant to HELP you? Easily enough when you forget about it,but yet fuck i dunno. Worth a shot i suppose.Might help me,after all many people think i DO NEED help,fuck knows.I don't think i do.Nothing much i can do.
I'm so tired.I've been awake since just before 6.I just sprung right up from my bed n punched my door :S Had a nightmare you see.About my dad,and when i looked at the door i seen my dad :S really just don't know.Then i sat at my window for most of the morning looking out at the graveyard.Then after all that bout 7 o'clock i went out running for about 30 mins.Came back up and looked out at the graveyard thinking just how lucky i really am.I have Sammie,i think she understands me i don't know because i am difficult.Then it got me thinking how much i've gained since last June.I was a millimetre from death,and because i lived i have Sammie.Don't get me wrong i just really didn't wana live after it.Didn't see making the effort with breathing or anything,but then because i did i have Sammie and really it's all i want n need.Don't get me wrong i need friends and i do appreciate them,but when u fall in love,u dont really have time to think about anyone else really.Because u know your constantly thinking about them.I do think about my friends,how theyre doing and things.That seemed really kinda....uhm.....selfish if u like......i dunno im talkin crap more or less cuz im nervous.
Ah well i better head.....otherwise i shall be late.See you all later :P
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........
Karena
xXx
p.s *hugs n kisses for Sammie* grass is green n all!