Break Up
So she did it again. My girlfriend just broke up with me. Again. Now I have to find a new place to live. I'm financially screwed. I had good credit, but now I'm about to break a lease. I'm pisssed. I want to drink. It seems like everything else is starting over, so why not my sobriety. It's not like my program has been worth a shit in the past year anyway. I really trusted her, and now I'm being stabbed in the back. I just want to sleep and I can't. I don't want to work tomorrow, but I desperately need the money. I don't want to move back into my dad's rent house. That's probably the smart thing to do, but that's a huge hit to my ego. If I don't, then I'm going to need my parents to bail me out anyway. I feel pretty hopeless right now. I really want to act out.