Rant
I am officially sick of my Texas family.
I realize that I will think differently once another several years of not seeing them rolls by, but right now, I've had enough. I love my grandparents, aunts etc. Don't get me wrong, they are blood and I love them, but they are the main reason I refuse to look for a job out here.
My cousin Sean I could do with never seeing again. 18 years old and six foot three. He's mean and arrogant and refuses to even acknowledge us in public. He disrespects my granparents to thier faces and is mean to me and my sisters. Then my grandma yells at me for ignoring him. Fuck him.
The cousins I do like; Derek, Steven, Micheal and Reggie, who do thier best to behave more like older brothers, haven't even come around to see us more than once! Reggie, I'm not mad at, he's stationed in Miami, that's a killer commute. He's at least called three or four times. I've seen my cousin Micheal (a screw up who's served three consecutive jail sentences since I've been here.) has been by to see us more than Derek and Steven, Derek has a girlfreind and a job, but we are family dammit! I don't think I'm being selfish, we are only here for six weeks, his job and his girlfriend will both be here when we leave. And he hasn't seen us in years. Steven doesn't even have a job! Just a girlfreind. He's only been by once for about a half hour, and that time he brought his girlfriend and hardly spoke to us at all. The next tirade they give me about staying away from boys will probably be followed by me screaming obscenities. The two little boys, Zach and Little Sean are around all the time 'cause I'm working for their mom. They don't bother me much.
Other than my cousins, my grandparents and my aunts have all basically been telling my I'm fat and lazy and a burden to my mother since I got here. My sisters aren't helping my stress level either. I'm SICK of it. I miss my dog, he doesn't judge me. I don't like crying myself to sleep on the bathroom floor because of somthing my own grandmother said to me. I want to go home.