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havent updated this thingie in a while i kno but its all good. i was actually thinkin of dumpin it but i needed to get some things out of my head right now.
u kno today...i was listening to 2 songs over and over. (greenday: good riddance & the ataris: diary) both in which used to make me sad and cry cuz they sing about how they live life to the fullest and jsut havin an awesome time being the kid that u r...and i never did that and it made me regretfull....well today they actually made me happy cuz well...i was happy. and i agreed with it. i was just freakin lettin loose and havin the time of my life. just goin out in the mornin and comin home at night. never any plans just goin out doin random shit and having the time of my life doin it. like having car races and doin doughnuts in corn feilds and makin out till u cant breath and just runnin around with no rules no boundaries no regulations. for the first time in my life i felt free, happy, and absolutly content. everything was just perfect. and then im goin on vacation with lauren this weekend. im just like this cant go bad. everything is right. then...i go over to ashlees today...lauren get mad at me cuz i was hangin out with zack and jen and bri and tommy alot. and she was sorta sayin stuff like how i ditch my friends and dump the ppl once i get sick of. man she got me crying hysterically. i ended up calling katie on the phone. she cheered me up. and i hope things will work out between me and lauren cuz she rocks and i dont want to lose her as a friend whats so ever.
it just sucks u kno. it seems that i cant ever get new friends without loosing the old 1s. its like one or the other. i mean...y cant i have both. god. things just always have to be confusing. i dont kno what to do.
but im getting closer to bri. man hes like my brother. he knos me more then i kno myself. hes even got my habits down. and when sumtins bugign me he can ALWAYS tell no matter how well im hideing it. i love him so much and he cheers me up sooo much. who knew me and him could get so close. im just glad we did.
but lets recap on the past week shall we...
went to chicago with lauren...that rock...yea we got stuck in an elevator...i dont think i have ever laughed so hard lol. yes we were laughin in the crisis of our situation. it was awesome
went to warped with jen and shannon..that was awesome. got a shit load of free stuff and got to see awesome bands.
went everyday of proud american days..mostly hung out with zack on all 4 days which was awesome..i must admit i do have fun makin out with him HAHAHAHAHA
basically cruised around with jen zack and tommy and bri
and had games of cat and mouse with zack, against bri and jen against me and ryan. and ryan drives like a mother fucker goin thru mud puddles and corn fields n shit. it was awesome. and then later that night he flew off his friends car...got a cuncution..which is always fun
and thats bassically it. lol. but i did have the time of my life. and im glad!
well things r goin great between me and zack. and me and kt are patching up our friendship which is awesome. and im meeting a lot of new ppl. and well me and lauren...god i hope we stay friend out of all this. cuz i dont kno what i would do without her.
but what did sort of hurt is at ashlees they started talkin about the village and im thinkin lauren---i thought WE were gunna go see it. i turned down like 3 ppl cuz when they asked me to go see it with them im like i cant i promised i was gunna go see it with sum1 else. but its ok. ill catch it on video. it all good.
but i think that about covers alot. maybe ill keep this thing around for a lil while longer. lol.
havent updated this thingie in a while i kno but its all good. i was actually thinkin of dumpin it but i needed to get some things out of my head right now.
u kno today...i was listening to 2 songs over and over. (greenday: good riddance & the ataris: diary) both in which used to make me sad and cry cuz they sing about how they live life to the fullest and jsut havin an awesome time being the kid that u r...and i never did that and it made me regretfull....well today they actually made me happy cuz well...i was happy. and i agreed with it. i was just freakin lettin loose and havin the time of my life. just goin out in the mornin and comin home at night. never any plans just goin out doin random shit and having the time of my life doin it. like having car races and doin doughnuts in corn feilds and makin out till u cant breath and just runnin around with no rules no boundaries no regulations. for the first time in my life i felt free, happy, and absolutly content. everything was just perfect. and then im goin on vacation with lauren this weekend. im just like this cant go bad. everything is right. then...i go over to ashlees today...lauren get mad at me cuz i was hangin out with zack and jen and bri and tommy alot. and she was sorta sayin stuff like how i ditch my friends and dump the ppl once i get sick of. man she got me crying hysterically. i ended up calling katie on the phone. she cheered me up. and i hope things will work out between me and lauren cuz she rocks and i dont want to lose her as a friend whats so ever.
it just sucks u kno. it seems that i cant ever get new friends without loosing the old 1s. its like one or the other. i mean...y cant i have both. god. things just always have to be confusing. i dont kno what to do.
but im getting closer to bri. man hes like my brother. he knos me more then i kno myself. hes even got my habits down. and when sumtins bugign me he can ALWAYS tell no matter how well im hideing it. i love him so much and he cheers me up sooo much. who knew me and him could get so close. im just glad we did.
but lets recap on the past week shall we...
went to chicago with lauren...that rock...yea we got stuck in an elevator...i dont think i have ever laughed so hard lol. yes we were laughin in the crisis of our situation. it was awesome
went to warped with jen and shannon..that was awesome. got a shit load of free stuff and got to see awesome bands.
went everyday of proud american days..mostly hung out with zack on all 4 days which was awesome..i must admit i do have fun makin out with him HAHAHAHAHA
basically cruised around with jen zack and tommy and bri
and had games of cat and mouse with zack, against bri and jen against me and ryan. and ryan drives like a mother fucker goin thru mud puddles and corn fields n shit. it was awesome. and then later that night he flew off his friends car...got a cuncution..which is always fun
and thats bassically it. lol. but i did have the time of my life. and im glad!
well things r goin great between me and zack. and me and kt are patching up our friendship which is awesome. and im meeting a lot of new ppl. and well me and lauren...god i hope we stay friend out of all this. cuz i dont kno what i would do without her.
but what did sort of hurt is at ashlees they started talkin about the village and im thinkin lauren---i thought WE were gunna go see it. i turned down like 3 ppl cuz when they asked me to go see it with them im like i cant i promised i was gunna go see it with sum1 else. but its ok. ill catch it on video. it all good.
but i think that about covers alot. maybe ill keep this thing around for a lil while longer. lol.