It's a Homework-Avoidance Technique...
I had been getting better at updating...but now I dropped the ball again. But I'm back! (for now...) Apologies, apologies...I didn't mean to disappear like that. (On my journal or anyone else's...)
Random fact before anything else. Yesterday and today I woke up with a Blackmore's Night song in my head. Not the same one, but...it was still interesting, to me. Haven't listened to their music for awhile. Yesterday was "Three Black Crows" and this morning's was "Now and Then." Maybe I should listen to my songs by them again...
I'm starting to feel sick. I don't know if it's nerves or if all those illnesses I've been fighting off and denying have finally overrun the internal castle of wellness. Or maybe it's both. (Knew it was only a matter of time--everyone around me's been sick or is sick...roommate, Vag. Mon. director, classmates, profs...I was doomed from the start. Just was trying to delay it 'til Spring Break.)
I had my presentation yesterday in Leadership and Group Dynamics. That actually wasn't too bad...(I can say it now, the day after...) I was second-to-last to go, and my prof said "We have seven minutes left and two more people to get through. Let's keep it moving." And then of course, I had to get 3 motions to get through, instead of two, like a couple people got...but I made it through. And he said I did pretty well. We'll see when we get the grade. I know I didn't get all my participation points for the day. I still needed one (maybe two...) when I went up to be chairperson and the last guy didn't call on me. (Can partially blame the prof--when it was time for debate and it was asked for, he said there was none. Because we were basically out of time. But still.) But I survived, and now it's over. Just the written test on Friday...which I still need to study for. Majorly. And I won't have much time tomorrow or Thursday, due to the performance...
Which leads right into the next item of business. (guh. Parlimentary Procedure still on the brain?!) next stressor in my life right now. Vagina Monologues. Tomorrow and Thursday. It may not be a big deal to everyone, but getting up on stage is...hard. In band, I'm usually okay, but that's because I've got a big group of people up there with me, I'm sitting in the back mostly hidden from view (due to placement of my instrument), and I--except for last year---don't have any solos, so I don't need to play by myself... Tomorrow, I'll be in front of an audience (who knows how big...sounds like Thurs'll be bigger...not too many people stopped by while I was tabling. Maybe we won't have a gargantuan crowd. Someone said last year, both nights sold out...) with only eight or nine other people, and I'll be expected to speak/read in front of everyone. And my monologue is one of the longer ones... But I need to do this. I have to. It's important to me. But it's so hard. I have difficulty having conversations one-on-one, and now I'll be in front of an audience speaking.
And you never realize how obvious your speech impediment is until you're in front of a crowd. Maybe it's because nerves enhance it. Or maybe it's because you're more conscious of how you sound, since you're in front of a group. But it gets really blatant. And every time I trip up, it makes it worse, because once you mess up, you mess up more. One of those bizarre rules of speech. (or music-playing. I do that on my trumpet, too--miss one note, then suddenly I'm missing a lot of them. It throws off the rhythm and your mind...)
I've got a Biology project to be thinking up/planning with my lab partner. We got the procedure mostly done today. I thought I'd throw together the Intro of the report, since we don't need data for that---just background info on Blackworms. After Break, we'll be starting the experiment, and then it'll be rushing to get everything done...so we're advised to work ahead as much as possible.
And our very treasured (since we've only got one or two this semester) percussionists discovered a scheduling conflict with our shceduled concert, so director's trying to find a new date. So, the date of my one and only concert this semester is now up in the air. We're going to hopefully find out Thursday...
On a better note--my friend in Geology and Leadership/Group Dynamics classes gave me a list of the anime he has today (we got on the topic somehow...) and he offered to let me borrow and watch anything on the list. :) What a nice guy. Wish I could replicate, but I don't really own any anime...(Well, Spiral, but that's special case--need a specific program and codec...could offer, though, I guess...)
I was at class or "tabling" (sitting at a table with a sign about the Monologues, waiting to answer questions/advertise to people) so didn't have time for much else today...did manage to do my Geology reading while sitting there...but not the assignment.
Well, I've got a Geology assignment to do, a test to study for, and a Monologue to practice. Guess I'd better get going.
Can't wait for Spring Break...next week....3 more days... ...
"Faith is an integral piece to the puzzle of life. Faith in yourself, faith in your family and friends, faith in your god(God)...just have faith. Belief can move mountains."