Getting shit together
I had a rough night. Tired as hell, but I couldn't manage to actually restfully sleep.
Blue came upstairs and into my room for the first time since I got back.
It was nice.
But restless.
Tossing turning, the door was open a smidge to let blue out so she wouldn't yowl for it, but it freaked me out. it BOTHERED me being open. The wind was blowing as a storm went through... weirdness in my dreams. Kept waking up thinking I'd see something, but nothing was there and that was more weird?
More often than not, I did this thing that happens sometimes, I wake up and I just look at myself like "woah" stick out my hands, look at them, ground myself. Once or twice I looked at my hands, thought they were on upsidown, and the weirdest one is when I woke up and thought my hand was broken because I had it curled under my head, resting.
Ugh. These nights are strange.
Waking up was rough, but I still feel good because I skipped work yesterday. I didn't have to work until 10 and then deal with that. This concept is extreamly comforting and I don't know why.
Got dressed, went to Quick Trip, got a breakfast burrito, coffee, and propel and went to school in a calm state.
Oh, and I saw bunnies while driving out of the neighborhood.
These nights aren't a foreign thing for me to go through, that one there has just been the most vivid. usually I'm freaked out the rest of the day, but this time, not so much. Class was even easier. I got a lot of work done and I think I'm semi-caught up. I feel accomplished in that.
No more energy drinks if I can help it. Coffee does the job of giving me a stable (and still somewhat healthy) dose of caffeine. The energy drinks, I think, cause me more problems lately, coming off of the 'high' with resonating effects.
So, still detoxing, not going to let these morning classes get the better of me. Coffee, water, yeah.
Since I have my ridiculous long break between classes, I'm making a pit stop at the house to see if I can rest...
So.
Yeah.
As weird and strange as all that was, I think I'm doing fairly well.
Blue came upstairs and into my room for the first time since I got back.
It was nice.
But restless.
Tossing turning, the door was open a smidge to let blue out so she wouldn't yowl for it, but it freaked me out. it BOTHERED me being open. The wind was blowing as a storm went through... weirdness in my dreams. Kept waking up thinking I'd see something, but nothing was there and that was more weird?
More often than not, I did this thing that happens sometimes, I wake up and I just look at myself like "woah" stick out my hands, look at them, ground myself. Once or twice I looked at my hands, thought they were on upsidown, and the weirdest one is when I woke up and thought my hand was broken because I had it curled under my head, resting.
Ugh. These nights are strange.
Waking up was rough, but I still feel good because I skipped work yesterday. I didn't have to work until 10 and then deal with that. This concept is extreamly comforting and I don't know why.
Got dressed, went to Quick Trip, got a breakfast burrito, coffee, and propel and went to school in a calm state.
Oh, and I saw bunnies while driving out of the neighborhood.
These nights aren't a foreign thing for me to go through, that one there has just been the most vivid. usually I'm freaked out the rest of the day, but this time, not so much. Class was even easier. I got a lot of work done and I think I'm semi-caught up. I feel accomplished in that.
No more energy drinks if I can help it. Coffee does the job of giving me a stable (and still somewhat healthy) dose of caffeine. The energy drinks, I think, cause me more problems lately, coming off of the 'high' with resonating effects.
So, still detoxing, not going to let these morning classes get the better of me. Coffee, water, yeah.
Since I have my ridiculous long break between classes, I'm making a pit stop at the house to see if I can rest...
So.
Yeah.
As weird and strange as all that was, I think I'm doing fairly well.