im content with right now, but not for long
Lately I've been finding myself even more and more confused about the future. Its almost as if the future becomes less certain as i get closer to graduation. Well, thats not entirely true, 2002 was forever ago (literally too). But this weekend when Josh asked me what I could see myself doing when I grow up, it quickly turned into a violent argument. I mean, what couldn't i see myself doing? Attorney? entrepreneur? Homeless person? i feel like in todays ADHD world, everyone i know is on the fast track to twenty-something. I could see myself blowing it all. I could see myself wondering for the rest of my life about what i want to do with the rest of my life. I mean I want a career thats genuinely rewarding, but with wealth, and status. I love being known. Known enough to be understood.. without having to prove myself. I need a career/title that will eliminate the need for said dirty work.
And I need money. I wanna say its not important but high school was over a loooong time ago. Squeezing by on maxed out credit cards leaves me with a very unfamiliar feeling. We never knew what it was like to worry about money growing up, im certain this isn't something i would like to get used to.
And time. I need time. Time for me. Time for the people wanting to invade my me time (and rightly so because i will love these people). so i need some damn recreation. But wealthy businesspeople and 120$/HR Attourneys can't afford recreation, can they?
Probably most important, inventiveness, because thats what really makes who i am.. I mean please just give me a solutionless problem to solve and let me make it happen. i say i hate it but it always pays off in the end, and generously. So I need a career that moves marginally faster that i do. i need independence, and room to grow. But I need routine, not monotony. I need wisdom not boredom. I want a career that intertwines with my personal life, like a job working with music. Someone told me on thanksgiving, "..Find a job that you want to think about after 5pm"
gotta be origional. I will never own/drive a ford taurus. not even a rental.
I wanna know i'm doing something that makes this world a better place to live in. Which i guess is really impossible because that can get so opinionated so fast. But i really do admire humanitarian ideals, despite my fits of selfish iscolation...
i guess this is the last thing. but really its like a million more things. i need a sense of community. I need to belong to something
Now.. as far as finding my niche in this madness..
And I need money. I wanna say its not important but high school was over a loooong time ago. Squeezing by on maxed out credit cards leaves me with a very unfamiliar feeling. We never knew what it was like to worry about money growing up, im certain this isn't something i would like to get used to.
And time. I need time. Time for me. Time for the people wanting to invade my me time (and rightly so because i will love these people). so i need some damn recreation. But wealthy businesspeople and 120$/HR Attourneys can't afford recreation, can they?
Probably most important, inventiveness, because thats what really makes who i am.. I mean please just give me a solutionless problem to solve and let me make it happen. i say i hate it but it always pays off in the end, and generously. So I need a career that moves marginally faster that i do. i need independence, and room to grow. But I need routine, not monotony. I need wisdom not boredom. I want a career that intertwines with my personal life, like a job working with music. Someone told me on thanksgiving, "..Find a job that you want to think about after 5pm"
gotta be origional. I will never own/drive a ford taurus. not even a rental.
I wanna know i'm doing something that makes this world a better place to live in. Which i guess is really impossible because that can get so opinionated so fast. But i really do admire humanitarian ideals, despite my fits of selfish iscolation...
i guess this is the last thing. but really its like a million more things. i need a sense of community. I need to belong to something
Now.. as far as finding my niche in this madness..