to the day that marks you're not hear
I have come to realize, I'm growing apart from who I really am. I keep thinking that, that someone will come back to me. Guess not. I keep thinking someone who is actually genuine will walk into my life. Negative. I keep thinking that whoever I start to get feelings for, will have them back. Fuck that. I have learned this in the past 2 weeks. To tell you the honest truth, I used to be really fucking strong. I'm not, I am basically tearing my heart out on this one. You want to hear me say it? Yes I am crying. No fear or embarrassment. I dont give a shit anymore. I get used. I get hurt. I trust NO ONE. Next boy that tells me "you are beautiful." or "I care for you so much." I am going to laugh in their face and call them a LIAR. See what you did? You made me not believe or have high hopes. As for the other parts in my life, I have amazing friends and great family that unlike you guys, care for me. So take this time and let this entry fill your fucked up soul and drag you into a miserable night. Cause that is what you have given me, for the past months.