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At this moment, I'm about as depressed as I've ever been. Maybe I don't have the right to use that word. But I can't think of any other word to describe the dissatisfaction and hopelessness I feel in my life right now. I only have myself to blame but admitting that is no comfort or solution.
I simply don't know what to do. It would be one thing if I was happy sailing along with no direction but that's not even the case. It makes me sick to my stomach. Yes I'll have my computer very soon and I feel like that'll help... but I pray I'm not simply using it as my latest justification for why my life is going to turn around.
Sorry for the angst folks but I needed to vent this out somewhere. At this moment, although I know it's not true at all, I feel like I would have been better simply staying down in Florida back in 2006. Course I could have done that but I know I want to be here.
Basically nonstop work until NEXT Sunday. I need a moment to just... stop and thanks to my own planning I'm not likely to get one.
I simply don't know what to do. It would be one thing if I was happy sailing along with no direction but that's not even the case. It makes me sick to my stomach. Yes I'll have my computer very soon and I feel like that'll help... but I pray I'm not simply using it as my latest justification for why my life is going to turn around.
Sorry for the angst folks but I needed to vent this out somewhere. At this moment, although I know it's not true at all, I feel like I would have been better simply staying down in Florida back in 2006. Course I could have done that but I know I want to be here.
Basically nonstop work until NEXT Sunday. I need a moment to just... stop and thanks to my own planning I'm not likely to get one.