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Today I went to a bazaar at my old grade school.
There was a boy in the yard across from where I parked who was playing in a pile of leaves. He was having a lot of fun and it made me smile. I don’t enjoy playing in leaves (it always seems like more fun than it actually is) and his was a good reminder that external validation is not the key to happiness.
I arrived late so a lot of the game booths were abandoned and was at first was a little disappointed in myself because I was quite timid about participating in the ones that were still open. Then I realized that I wasn’t interested in the beanbag or ring toss and wouldn’t be joyful in my execution. So I didn’t do anything just to do it and walked around instead.
I had a nice time revisiting the school grounds and building. I love the interior of grade schools, especially the K-3 wing where all of the amenities are at a six year olds level. I was soon ready to return home with a renewed sense of child like wonder, but not before doing something I was excited to try.
My favorite treat is, without a doubt, cotton candy and for some time I’ve thought I would like to try spinning a stick. Today the nice girl running the cotton candy machine let me give it a try. It was fun, I laughed the whole time. I do regret not asking someone to take my picture while I did it. I was afraid my initial request was going to be denied, and I didn’t want to be any more of an inconvenience. That’s a common fear for me and I should have just asked someone, but did step out of my comfort zone to ask to make the cotton candy.
I have something weird to report about new flow. Last night my husband and I met two people while out at a bar. Within our first five minutes of conversation one of the people offered me drugs. I’ve been offered drugs before in my life, but never by someone I’d just met. I did not use this opportunity as a chance to practice saying yes to freebies, but the offer struck me. I think it’s a sign that I’ve made a shift and opened new channels for abundance to flow into my life, now I have to figure out how to channel something other than the flow of illegal substances.
Today I am grateful for B bringing me a blanked because he thought I might be cold.
Today I am grateful for friends who get my sense of humor.
Today I am grateful for still fall days.
Today I am grateful for foods that taste better the day after you make them.
Today I am grateful for crap TV shows that make fun of even crappier TV shows.
Today I acknowledge myself for keeping in touch with old friends.
Today I acknowledge myself for not using being hung over as an excuse to do nothing and eat whatever I want.
Today I acknowledge myself for asking a question in the face of fear of rejection.
Today I acknowledge myself for getting closer with people and opening the lines of communication by asking K if she wanted to hang out sometime and for her phone number.
Today I acknowledge myself for getting excited and following my runaway imagination.
Today I acknowledge myself for noticing when I was judging other people because of perceived flaws and perceiving others judging me because of what I think they see as flaws.
There was a boy in the yard across from where I parked who was playing in a pile of leaves. He was having a lot of fun and it made me smile. I don’t enjoy playing in leaves (it always seems like more fun than it actually is) and his was a good reminder that external validation is not the key to happiness.
I arrived late so a lot of the game booths were abandoned and was at first was a little disappointed in myself because I was quite timid about participating in the ones that were still open. Then I realized that I wasn’t interested in the beanbag or ring toss and wouldn’t be joyful in my execution. So I didn’t do anything just to do it and walked around instead.
I had a nice time revisiting the school grounds and building. I love the interior of grade schools, especially the K-3 wing where all of the amenities are at a six year olds level. I was soon ready to return home with a renewed sense of child like wonder, but not before doing something I was excited to try.
My favorite treat is, without a doubt, cotton candy and for some time I’ve thought I would like to try spinning a stick. Today the nice girl running the cotton candy machine let me give it a try. It was fun, I laughed the whole time. I do regret not asking someone to take my picture while I did it. I was afraid my initial request was going to be denied, and I didn’t want to be any more of an inconvenience. That’s a common fear for me and I should have just asked someone, but did step out of my comfort zone to ask to make the cotton candy.
I have something weird to report about new flow. Last night my husband and I met two people while out at a bar. Within our first five minutes of conversation one of the people offered me drugs. I’ve been offered drugs before in my life, but never by someone I’d just met. I did not use this opportunity as a chance to practice saying yes to freebies, but the offer struck me. I think it’s a sign that I’ve made a shift and opened new channels for abundance to flow into my life, now I have to figure out how to channel something other than the flow of illegal substances.
Today I am grateful for B bringing me a blanked because he thought I might be cold.
Today I am grateful for friends who get my sense of humor.
Today I am grateful for still fall days.
Today I am grateful for foods that taste better the day after you make them.
Today I am grateful for crap TV shows that make fun of even crappier TV shows.
Today I acknowledge myself for keeping in touch with old friends.
Today I acknowledge myself for not using being hung over as an excuse to do nothing and eat whatever I want.
Today I acknowledge myself for asking a question in the face of fear of rejection.
Today I acknowledge myself for getting closer with people and opening the lines of communication by asking K if she wanted to hang out sometime and for her phone number.
Today I acknowledge myself for getting excited and following my runaway imagination.
Today I acknowledge myself for noticing when I was judging other people because of perceived flaws and perceiving others judging me because of what I think they see as flaws.