like the corners of my mind
At the end of my last entry I was writing about getting my self to work, but had the intention of popping some corn and watching MTV before going off to bed. And I felt bad, like a fraud, but I didn’t know if I had it in me to get down to business. I’d made my intentions clear, and I could always start tomorrow. So I did pop corn. I watched a little MTV. I then watched a couple of episodes of CSI Miami with my husband, and that gave me a second wind. And so, from midnight till three am I’ve been working. And wouldn’t you know it, the idea I had while writing my last post… that I might be putting my energy into a way of living that isn’t the best one for me… came thru as a vital point in what I was working on. I’m proud to say that I did come back to the work and happy to feel like things are flowing thru me. I’ll have to make these past two posts ‘memories’ to remind me that though getting into the work might seem hard the rewards are worth it, and how I can allow myself a little respite between thinking of what I’d like to do and actually doing it. I know my next big challenge will be how to continue returning to the work where the rewards have been experienced for many days on end. I hope to make a memory of that experience as well.