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summer is weird. i feel llike i need to have some sort of epic self-discovery experience. and also stop writing lj entries and then deleting them.
i don't totally comprehend the whole, like, going to college in just a few months thing. i don't see myself as an adult at all WHATSOEVER and that's sort of bugging me right now, the dependence i feel on my mother in particular, the way my anxiety levels soar whenever i have to take care of myself.
but as far as illness, almost better... so close. goddammit i can't wait to SING and stay out and try the whole independence thing on for size again.
i don't totally comprehend the whole, like, going to college in just a few months thing. i don't see myself as an adult at all WHATSOEVER and that's sort of bugging me right now, the dependence i feel on my mother in particular, the way my anxiety levels soar whenever i have to take care of myself.
but as far as illness, almost better... so close. goddammit i can't wait to SING and stay out and try the whole independence thing on for size again.