Fuck
Fuck people who don't think I'm worth anything. You know what? I'm sorry I'm fucking human. Fuck those who always look down their noses at me and fuck them for thinking they're better than I am and I'm not worth an effort. Fuck people who find me easy to dicard, it's happened to me all my life and I never said anything, well now I'm saying "Fuck You". I'm, so tired of people fucking turning their backs on me like I'm some piece of shit. Like I'm not worth some small or even large amount of effort. Fine, take the fucking easy way out, don't deal with it. I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT! No one gives a fucking damn and no one ever will and you know what, I can accept that. Really I can, but I'm tired of people fucking pretending to care. If you don't care, LET ME FUCKING KNOW, don't act one way when that's not how you feel and don't try to spare me. Don't try and succeed to get my fucking defenses down so in the end you can go, nanny nanny boo boo...just kidding. Fuck that. I have tried to make myself good and I have tried to make myself worth SOMETHING, I already think it's a miracle I'm not some crackhead alley whore. That would have been the easy way out, the one some like to take. But no, I fucking did my best to be the best I could and if I fuck up along the way, PEOPLE FUCK UP IN LIFE, A WHOLE FUCKING LOT! I'm tired of people having all these fucking standards for me. I'm me, don't expect me to be more than I am, I never claim to be. I will be the best that I can because that's what I want and that's what I choose. I chose not to give in the the shitty path that had been laid out for me, I chose to clear that path as I went down it. I'm sorry if I might get my hands a little dirty in the process. All I want is for people to stop fucking with my head. To just be there because they want to. Not because of some obligation they feel. I don't want pity, I want people to get it and no one is getting it. So, fuck this. If I'm really not worth jack shit, then don't bother...oh wait, you're not.