Getting past my issues/Random stuff

[blastfire]

So I am finally starting to be able to cope with what my father and those church people did to me. They really did not know any better. They probably still don't. Most Christians are not very logical thinkers. If they were, they wouldn't be Christians. People like Jason are few and far between; actual logical thinking and non judgmental Christians. I just have to learn to be better than that myself so that I can stop feeling such hatred toward the people of that religion. It is not all of their faults that this happened to me, it is only the fault of my father and the intolerance of the people at Living Stone Chapel. I know how to put the blame where it belongs. I also know that there is nothing that I could have done to prevent this except to have not moved in with my father when I was 16. I also had no idea what that church would do to me.

On another note, the gluten free diet was a complete failure. I felt depressed and foggy the entire 4 days I was on it. I am not Celiac, so it is not necessary for my survival.

Today I was out doing some shopping and I was looking around for some extra Joe stuff, but really did not find anything I needed. I feel like even if I bought something right now, it would make no difference to my attitude and would only drain my spending money. I am looking for inspiration. I don't think I will find it at a toy store. I just want something to do with my time to keep busy and I don't feel as if I can just keep buying the same stuff over and over again.

Really getting into the new Lonely Island.