Ranting
I honestly do not and cannot understand her. We made plans and again she broke them. Im glad I did not get dressed up or anything to go out and I made alternate plans to rent movies and spend the day playing with Nathan. She never called or anything. I guess is it safe to say I am through?
another thing I am trying not to be judgmental about this but its awfully hard. If you know your child is in danger in some way why push it? He doesn't care about her if he did he would change. Its sad that this poor child is being used just so he can get to her. But then again its her fault because she can tell him where to go. Hes not much of a dad anyway. Maybe I should just stay out of it and the next time she wants to rant and rave about him I should cut her off and say I don't want to hear about it. He has no car, no ambition and no realistic plans for the future. I know I have no car at the moment but my situation is different. I have plans to get another car. He on the other hand is 27 , does not and will not drive and he wants to be an actor. I laugh at that. why ? because he does nothing to make it happen. Grr maybe Im just upset at both of them , he for being inconsiderate to his daughter and her for being inconsiderate to people who really care and try to be there for her.
The sad part is they are not even together he gives her lousy child support and she spends her spare time chasing after a guy who is insecure about their relationship , is not sure about being with someone who has a child. I just need to find one really good friend..Someone other than Shaun who I can spend time with and be there for and who will be there for me. This is seriously bugging me. I think Im just mad right now.
*ending rant*
"Stuck inside this mask of mine
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
Don't touch me
Don't Fucking touch me"
another thing I am trying not to be judgmental about this but its awfully hard. If you know your child is in danger in some way why push it? He doesn't care about her if he did he would change. Its sad that this poor child is being used just so he can get to her. But then again its her fault because she can tell him where to go. Hes not much of a dad anyway. Maybe I should just stay out of it and the next time she wants to rant and rave about him I should cut her off and say I don't want to hear about it. He has no car, no ambition and no realistic plans for the future. I know I have no car at the moment but my situation is different. I have plans to get another car. He on the other hand is 27 , does not and will not drive and he wants to be an actor. I laugh at that. why ? because he does nothing to make it happen. Grr maybe Im just upset at both of them , he for being inconsiderate to his daughter and her for being inconsiderate to people who really care and try to be there for her.
The sad part is they are not even together he gives her lousy child support and she spends her spare time chasing after a guy who is insecure about their relationship , is not sure about being with someone who has a child. I just need to find one really good friend..Someone other than Shaun who I can spend time with and be there for and who will be there for me. This is seriously bugging me. I think Im just mad right now.
*ending rant*
"Stuck inside this mask of mine
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
Don't touch me
Don't Fucking touch me"