Honestly......
I'm kind of in a funk right now. I just feel like I have a ton of stuff on my mind, but I really don't. It feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I don't like this feeling. Maybe it's the weather. I know that I'm not feeling it today.
Had a bit of a 'serious' conversation with Ashley last night. It was funny because we had both been drinking.....her a bit more than me. I took it easy last night so she could let loose and not have to worry about being the mom for once. I'm pretty sure she appreciated it. So, this talk, was at like 2:30 in the morning, as my beer is finally starting to set in and make my head spin, and I'm sure hers already was. I basically told her that I understand that coming out of a long term relationship can be hard. We've all loved and lost before. It's a hard road to travel, but it's a part of life. I wanted her to know that I really do care about her, and that no matter what she has to do or however long it takes to figure it all out in her head, I'll be there for her. It's rough, though. I really like being with her, and I'm not really afraid of "losing" her, because I don't "have" her to lose. Exclusive dating, without the b/f + g/f title. It's definitely a first for me. I knew right from the start that she wasn't ready for a relationship, and I'm okay with that.....I just wonder if/when the time comes, will her and I persue the relationship? I believe her and I have something good going, and it's certainly got staying power.
She brought up the fact that she had applied for a job in Arizona, and what would happen if it was her dream job and she moved away. I really had no response. I mean, it'd be a different story if she was my g/f, and I think my opinion would have a bit more weight behind it. I can't stop her from going after her dream job, I don't want to. I wouldn't want someone to stop me from following my dream. All I can say, and I probably should have, is that I fully support whatever she does. If the choices she makes hinders her and I from having a "serious" relationship, I can't, and won't, be mad. I'll be upset at the thought of not being with her, but ultimately, I fully support her and all she does. She's very intelligent, and she deserves all that she can get.
So, that being said........Due to my sickness, snow days, and Pier 1 always calling me off/sending me home early, my paychecks suffered heavily. Therefore, ALL of my bills are getting paid out of 1 check next week. TALK ABOUT SUCK. My insurance is set to be canceled tomorrow, awesome. I'm $148 in the whole with The RZA, and that sucks. I feel terrible for that. My truck payment is going to be late. My cell phone might get shut off for a few days. My brakes are going out on my truck. I mean, seriously, can life get any more awesome?
I love our city.
Had a bit of a 'serious' conversation with Ashley last night. It was funny because we had both been drinking.....her a bit more than me. I took it easy last night so she could let loose and not have to worry about being the mom for once. I'm pretty sure she appreciated it. So, this talk, was at like 2:30 in the morning, as my beer is finally starting to set in and make my head spin, and I'm sure hers already was. I basically told her that I understand that coming out of a long term relationship can be hard. We've all loved and lost before. It's a hard road to travel, but it's a part of life. I wanted her to know that I really do care about her, and that no matter what she has to do or however long it takes to figure it all out in her head, I'll be there for her. It's rough, though. I really like being with her, and I'm not really afraid of "losing" her, because I don't "have" her to lose. Exclusive dating, without the b/f + g/f title. It's definitely a first for me. I knew right from the start that she wasn't ready for a relationship, and I'm okay with that.....I just wonder if/when the time comes, will her and I persue the relationship? I believe her and I have something good going, and it's certainly got staying power.
She brought up the fact that she had applied for a job in Arizona, and what would happen if it was her dream job and she moved away. I really had no response. I mean, it'd be a different story if she was my g/f, and I think my opinion would have a bit more weight behind it. I can't stop her from going after her dream job, I don't want to. I wouldn't want someone to stop me from following my dream. All I can say, and I probably should have, is that I fully support whatever she does. If the choices she makes hinders her and I from having a "serious" relationship, I can't, and won't, be mad. I'll be upset at the thought of not being with her, but ultimately, I fully support her and all she does. She's very intelligent, and she deserves all that she can get.
So, that being said........Due to my sickness, snow days, and Pier 1 always calling me off/sending me home early, my paychecks suffered heavily. Therefore, ALL of my bills are getting paid out of 1 check next week. TALK ABOUT SUCK. My insurance is set to be canceled tomorrow, awesome. I'm $148 in the whole with The RZA, and that sucks. I feel terrible for that. My truck payment is going to be late. My cell phone might get shut off for a few days. My brakes are going out on my truck. I mean, seriously, can life get any more awesome?
I love our city.