Thoughts for your perusal
We cannot choose to fall in or out of love. We can only choose whether we pursue it as far as we can or if we fear it and try to keep it at arm's length. I pursue, for I once swore to never look back with regret at something because I refrained from action out of fear. I regret nothing;each experience made me the person I am today. It's cost me a few friendships, and most recently it's made a close one rather....painful, but without it I wouldn't change.
I will live my life.
I will do WHATEVER it takes to achieve what I choose.
You've been offered a place on this journey with me twice now, and both times we've spoke of love before you pushed me away, hard.
Only fate knows what the future holds, but there is a bit of pity for you in my heart these days.
You still barely know me. Every time I've trusted you enough to let down my guard it all went to hell on us. And honestly, I feel bad for you that you've never gotten to comprehend who I am, and how I feel and think. About life, philosophy, love, you, anyone really.
SO while you strive to find a way to half-heartedly apologize, I have this you should hear.
I'm sorry that you couldn't take the world I offered you, for fear of losing something that was never at risk. I'm sorry that you have to struggle through something I would've gladly helped with. I'm sorry for the price you paid for your choice; it was not something I asked for from those people, it was chosen by them.
But in the end, I'm sorry MOST
Because I KNOW you. In a twisted way I UNDERSTAND you, your actions, your method to your madness. I don't believe anyone else has ever been able to say that without arrogance. Maybe RJ. Maybe not. So I'm sorry that you have to search for that feeling with someone you're NOT afraid to lose.
A taste of words yet unspoken.
Fear Nothing
I will live my life.
I will do WHATEVER it takes to achieve what I choose.
You've been offered a place on this journey with me twice now, and both times we've spoke of love before you pushed me away, hard.
Only fate knows what the future holds, but there is a bit of pity for you in my heart these days.
You still barely know me. Every time I've trusted you enough to let down my guard it all went to hell on us. And honestly, I feel bad for you that you've never gotten to comprehend who I am, and how I feel and think. About life, philosophy, love, you, anyone really.
SO while you strive to find a way to half-heartedly apologize, I have this you should hear.
I'm sorry that you couldn't take the world I offered you, for fear of losing something that was never at risk. I'm sorry that you have to struggle through something I would've gladly helped with. I'm sorry for the price you paid for your choice; it was not something I asked for from those people, it was chosen by them.
But in the end, I'm sorry MOST
Because I KNOW you. In a twisted way I UNDERSTAND you, your actions, your method to your madness. I don't believe anyone else has ever been able to say that without arrogance. Maybe RJ. Maybe not. So I'm sorry that you have to search for that feeling with someone you're NOT afraid to lose.
A taste of words yet unspoken.
Fear Nothing