Out the Trashbin.
It's going to take some time to overwrite all the trash I had put in here.
It took me a year to visit again, because, I was tired of the net.
I was busy with a lot of things.
SCHOOL.
WORK.
SELF.
and the obligation to satisfy the ADHD of my boyfriend.
Now that I've graduated from school and from the suffocating noose that held my neck in work.
Which was choking me the moment I BRIEFLY worked in ABS-CBN Broadcasting Network as a TV Host from April 2008 - October 2009. I was made to dress up and host a show with two other talented hosts who within six months also got out and replaced by another batch with names and titles.
I had a good share of adventure, fun and anger from being in show business.
The eventful six months as a TV personality earned me an image of both good and bad reviews.
I honestly couldn't be myself. I had to be someone else, which was quite exhausting but exacts the whole point of my work.
Wearing BLACK was banned from me because the higher-ups said, I wear it too much. And also leather collars and other "negative" clothing which composed the whole array of goth accessories and punk clothing lines.
My beloved black boots were almost banned but I had to insist because it's the only footwear that makes me look taller and comfortable to me.
My creativity was limited to being "sweet".
I never learned to wear stilts or other formally / casually SWEET clothes.
I only learned to put black in everything SWEET they suggested to me.
BOOTS in every clothing. Who cares for Fashion 101? I would think.
Oh they did. My mother did. The ugly comments in my show's Friendster account did.
But I let it be. I tried to push myself even more to fit the show.
Tried to BEND ALL RULES. And I finally gave up.
Six months was enough.
Now. I'm back being me. Had a fixation with black and boots so I'm wearing them almost everyday.
Some people who knew me from the show would run--SCARED. Haha.
Some who liked me, would say hi and smile.
Sometimes I hear people calling my name or the name of my show.
I just let them be. Sometimes it's annoying.
Oh well. That's done.
I am now in a dilemma.
Graduated from college. Now two options lie ahead of me.
(1) WORK again but in ABS-CBN. (Work invitations are everywhere, really)
(2) Proceed to LAW (which was my original plan)
Either one makes a good result but either can also be a waste of time.
I'm not bothering to explain that anymore.
Really now. I have a headache. So. I'll rant more the next time.
It took me a year to visit again, because, I was tired of the net.
I was busy with a lot of things.
SCHOOL.
WORK.
SELF.
and the obligation to satisfy the ADHD of my boyfriend.
Now that I've graduated from school and from the suffocating noose that held my neck in work.
Which was choking me the moment I BRIEFLY worked in ABS-CBN Broadcasting Network as a TV Host from April 2008 - October 2009. I was made to dress up and host a show with two other talented hosts who within six months also got out and replaced by another batch with names and titles.
I had a good share of adventure, fun and anger from being in show business.
The eventful six months as a TV personality earned me an image of both good and bad reviews.
I honestly couldn't be myself. I had to be someone else, which was quite exhausting but exacts the whole point of my work.
Wearing BLACK was banned from me because the higher-ups said, I wear it too much. And also leather collars and other "negative" clothing which composed the whole array of goth accessories and punk clothing lines.
My beloved black boots were almost banned but I had to insist because it's the only footwear that makes me look taller and comfortable to me.
My creativity was limited to being "sweet".
I never learned to wear stilts or other formally / casually SWEET clothes.
I only learned to put black in everything SWEET they suggested to me.
BOOTS in every clothing. Who cares for Fashion 101? I would think.
Oh they did. My mother did. The ugly comments in my show's Friendster account did.
But I let it be. I tried to push myself even more to fit the show.
Tried to BEND ALL RULES. And I finally gave up.
Six months was enough.
Now. I'm back being me. Had a fixation with black and boots so I'm wearing them almost everyday.
Some people who knew me from the show would run--SCARED. Haha.
Some who liked me, would say hi and smile.
Sometimes I hear people calling my name or the name of my show.
I just let them be. Sometimes it's annoying.
Oh well. That's done.
I am now in a dilemma.
Graduated from college. Now two options lie ahead of me.
(1) WORK again but in ABS-CBN. (Work invitations are everywhere, really)
(2) Proceed to LAW (which was my original plan)
Either one makes a good result but either can also be a waste of time.
I'm not bothering to explain that anymore.
Really now. I have a headache. So. I'll rant more the next time.