eh
I feel like my friend situation is crap on wheels. I fought with both Hable and Kyle today which was totally not supposed to be that way. this is why I hate discussing things via text message and emails. You can't drive the real point across that you're trying to make without the real context of your voice and the real face to face experience. Fuckin' hable deleted his Myspace which is possibly the most imature way to end a fight. It feels like the way things ended that I have two less friends today. I always feel like it's easy for people to dump me off. Like I am a disposable friend. I learned that you are not supposed to ask questions. Just keep feeling hurt and ignored. that's the only way. Some night it feels like no one wants to talk to me or hang out with me. That's why I am on the computer at Quinn's work. Sigh. Yeah things could be better. Owell. I guess that's what I get for speaking up then refusing to be a doormat to someone's attitudes. I totally wasn't even mad either. That's the worst part about it. It takes a lot to make me mad. I only get mad when someone starts getting hella defensive and pissy for no reason. So fuck it. I also talked to Ben today on the phone for about 40 minutes. It was actually kinda nice, he's been very pleasant to me. That makes me happy but i am afraid of talking to him too much. he still sends off mixed messages and vibes, so I think it would be best if we didn't hang out. I learned the hard way the first time around:(