don't think twice, it's alright...
Good-bye is too good of a word babe.....
I really don't like living in Toronto anymore.
I don't have any friends really.
There is no one I can randomly call without worrying if I'm calling too much.
It's not that I'm sad I'm just frustrated.
And I don't know, personally I don't like feeling like shit.
lol
It's just my opinion.
I'm really tired of being self-conscious around people.
I had a conversation with Amber about it and it felt like a lot of actions were "justified" by people's up-bringing.
Well, I can understand that but remember, my up-bringing wasn't any better for me either but at least I don't act that way.
I had a party recently and I didn't want to be there at all.
My friends from Mississauga came and I felt SO fucking relieved.
We shared sandwiches.
It was fucking fantastic.
I didn't want to leave my room at all.
I didn't have to worry about talking.
I didn't have to worry at all.
It was better when Amber came along because well, everyone is WAY closer to her than me so yeah...it was a natural flow.
Or something like that.
I don't know. I don't really give a shit anymore.
Like I said, I'm not sad or anything. I know I'm not interesting to them nor do I do anything interesting. It's okay, if I was as educated as them in certain areas I'd brush myself off too.
Like I don't even know what to say to anyone half of the time. Which is funny in a way I suppose.
Once in awhile, I'll think that it's all in my head so the few random times I actual feel like myself, I get the reaction and smack my own hand for it.
I kind of just want to dance for awhile and move to forget.
It's not like I'm attacking people or trying to offend them, it's just that I don't know who I'm suppose to be around people anymore.
xoxo,
Angie