2011
2011 haven exactly been a very good year but i guess i learnt alot and grew up a little.
in terms of academics, i screwed up badly in the first half of the year. although i felt that i studied harder, but the results didnt show. and for the first time throughout my whole education life, i started questioning my abilities. the thought of quitting school even came to my mind. i guess it was hard for me to handle because since young, i was able to cope well in terms of studies. but somehow.. as it gets tougher, i became weaker, became less confident, became less hardworking and consistent. but thank god for the friends who were there to encourage and give support and also to make me believe that the next time round will be better. i did better this sem which was encouraging but still disappointing. and sad it may sound, but im learning not to set too high expectations for myself because im scared of falling even harder. ohwells.
but dont worry i will continue to hold on to the hope of graduating well, although it may seem faint, but i will continue to work hard :)
and as for the most memorable thing of the year, i guess its the holiday job at massimodutti. even though it was just a short 1.5months there, i learnt alot. learning how to handle customers, learning abit about the retail sector and the people and procedures in it. although i most probably wont be going into this line in future, but it was fun learning about it. and although there were scoldings, complaints, embarrassments, but all these allowed me to learn. and even though friends ask me why i didnt try to find a job that is probably more related to what i want to do in future, but i guess now is the time to experience things that i wouldnt have time to do in future! :D
im also veryvery thankful for all the friends that have been with me throughout this whole year. requested for a special mention here is my BBF who never fails to amuse me HAHA.
as for the regrets, i think its the lack of effort and not putting my best into everything i do. on hindsight, i guess there were things that i could have done better if i had put in a little more effort and heart into it.
in terms of matters of the heart, i think my heart went on a rollercoaster ride recently (k abit exaggerating la actually) . and whatever happened made me more confirmed that im weak with emotions, im always letting my heart take control over my mind. but if you never try, you never know. and so im trying and i really hope that it will turn out well. and as of now, im not regretting my decision to try :D
2012 brings with it many uncertainties. and it is also my first year into adulthood. omg.
today, i pray that i will have the strength to face the challenges ahead and to have faith that everything will turn out fine :D
Click to viewmy current favourite song: Kutless-what faith can do
and so, as 2011 comes to an end, im thankful for all the good times and all the new things that i've learnt. and as we welcome 2012, im gonna leave all the bad and the ugly behind and welcome the new year with new hope and strength and pray that things will get better :D
