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wow.....so we did abs and back this morning, and i cant walk...lol
jordan is in my argumentative writing class...shes alot ncer than i thought,
we ate lunch together and talked about her plans, etc.
Matt is a machine!
im tired of alot of things. there are so many people out their who act like they have everything so bad, like their worlds and lives arent good when they live in nice houses and go to nice schools and have good friends. like when one little brick falls out of this pretty little home the have made for themselves, they dont know what to do about it. their issue is always worse, their problems are always sooo terrible. we are a nation of infants looking for a pacifier. waiting for someone to just come along and take care of us and make everything right. im poor, i lost my job, my parents and family is broke, i cant afford my school, i have been trying to hold on to too many parts of my life that ive found out to be complete and utter lies. ive found out that most of my old friends have backstabbed me repeatedly, and lied to me to my face, gossip about me to people i dont know and given me a reputation wherever i go without a thouhgt that maybe their actions and culture made me that way, the same way it made them that way, its so easy to point the finger and say look at that guy and all the things hes done and how horrible he is, cuz then you wont have to look at yourself and see whats wrong with you, someone will take care of that. Im aware of my past, and im aware of my present situation. im aware that i have come along way in my thinking and always will be progressing, i dont like to dwell on my mistakes because they burden my progress and in the midst of all my errors and all my misfortunes i really dont want anyone to help me out, because there are millions of people in the world in a worse situation than i am. in our cold american culture we forget about those who are plagued and die every day in other countries. starving children and tormented families. and we complain about not getiting the things we want, whether it be materials or relationships. we talk about the scandals of other people. i am an awful person. i take everything i have for granted. i live in high society where my troubles can be something like not being able to pay for college, rather than the fact that i can even be in college. i am conceited, arrogant, and hurtful. but i can see it, and one day ill beat it. because even tho i have all those things, i have much much much more love and compassion. And i dont care what anyone thinks about me, and you guys can talk all you want. but im tired and just want to be pure again. and only God can forgive me.
jordan is in my argumentative writing class...shes alot ncer than i thought,
we ate lunch together and talked about her plans, etc.
Matt is a machine!
im tired of alot of things. there are so many people out their who act like they have everything so bad, like their worlds and lives arent good when they live in nice houses and go to nice schools and have good friends. like when one little brick falls out of this pretty little home the have made for themselves, they dont know what to do about it. their issue is always worse, their problems are always sooo terrible. we are a nation of infants looking for a pacifier. waiting for someone to just come along and take care of us and make everything right. im poor, i lost my job, my parents and family is broke, i cant afford my school, i have been trying to hold on to too many parts of my life that ive found out to be complete and utter lies. ive found out that most of my old friends have backstabbed me repeatedly, and lied to me to my face, gossip about me to people i dont know and given me a reputation wherever i go without a thouhgt that maybe their actions and culture made me that way, the same way it made them that way, its so easy to point the finger and say look at that guy and all the things hes done and how horrible he is, cuz then you wont have to look at yourself and see whats wrong with you, someone will take care of that. Im aware of my past, and im aware of my present situation. im aware that i have come along way in my thinking and always will be progressing, i dont like to dwell on my mistakes because they burden my progress and in the midst of all my errors and all my misfortunes i really dont want anyone to help me out, because there are millions of people in the world in a worse situation than i am. in our cold american culture we forget about those who are plagued and die every day in other countries. starving children and tormented families. and we complain about not getiting the things we want, whether it be materials or relationships. we talk about the scandals of other people. i am an awful person. i take everything i have for granted. i live in high society where my troubles can be something like not being able to pay for college, rather than the fact that i can even be in college. i am conceited, arrogant, and hurtful. but i can see it, and one day ill beat it. because even tho i have all those things, i have much much much more love and compassion. And i dont care what anyone thinks about me, and you guys can talk all you want. but im tired and just want to be pure again. and only God can forgive me.