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So I leave in about 20 days.
The house is ok, I like my room. We live in this community thing. Its kinda gated, but without the gate. Its "walled". Every single house looks exactly the same and the sidewalks are freakishly small. It looks like a retirement community, complete with 5 lakes where the old men can spend their last days fishing. There is a "pool". Its part of one of their lakes with sand to make it look like a beach. Its too hot to breathe and it doesn’t cool down at night. "Its a nice neighborhood," my mom keeps telling me. But I dont like nice little communities in the suburbs. I like small apartments in the city. Ever since I was a little kid, I've wanted to live in a too-small, cramped apartment in the city. But now I'll be fishing with the old men who walk on small sidewalks who live in the same house over and over again. We're at least 10, maybe even 15, minutes from any type of civilization outside the one where we'll be. Civilization meaning a Wal-Mart and some local restaurants I've never heard of. We're not near a city at all. The only "city" there is is the Strip, where I'm mostly not old enough to be. And thats nowhere close to where I'll be... residing. I hate the suburbs. I need a city. I've lived in a city for as long as I can remember, never being more than 2 blocks from something thats not a street filled with houses. We shouldnt have even had to move from Larchmont. If we didnt, we wouldnt be moving now. But I guess we couldnt help that.. could we...
Fuck.
I'm just gonna try to think of this as a two year long vacation that'll be over soon. A shitty, shitty vacation.
The house is ok, I like my room. We live in this community thing. Its kinda gated, but without the gate. Its "walled". Every single house looks exactly the same and the sidewalks are freakishly small. It looks like a retirement community, complete with 5 lakes where the old men can spend their last days fishing. There is a "pool". Its part of one of their lakes with sand to make it look like a beach. Its too hot to breathe and it doesn’t cool down at night. "Its a nice neighborhood," my mom keeps telling me. But I dont like nice little communities in the suburbs. I like small apartments in the city. Ever since I was a little kid, I've wanted to live in a too-small, cramped apartment in the city. But now I'll be fishing with the old men who walk on small sidewalks who live in the same house over and over again. We're at least 10, maybe even 15, minutes from any type of civilization outside the one where we'll be. Civilization meaning a Wal-Mart and some local restaurants I've never heard of. We're not near a city at all. The only "city" there is is the Strip, where I'm mostly not old enough to be. And thats nowhere close to where I'll be... residing. I hate the suburbs. I need a city. I've lived in a city for as long as I can remember, never being more than 2 blocks from something thats not a street filled with houses. We shouldnt have even had to move from Larchmont. If we didnt, we wouldnt be moving now. But I guess we couldnt help that.. could we...
Fuck.
I'm just gonna try to think of this as a two year long vacation that'll be over soon. A shitty, shitty vacation.