Here we go again...
Summer is officially over. It sucked. Bad. I started off the summer not knowing anything, and came out still, not knowing anything. But what have I learned?
I've always feared what was going to happen tomorrow. I was always scared my decisions would cause some disastorous effect, and therefore would completely unbalance my life. But now, it's not like that anymore.
No one know what's going to happen tomorrow, in an hour, or even in the next second. But there's no use in fearing that anymore. Uncertainty is a fundamental of life...we enter life not knowing, and leave it just the same. Along the way though, we learn to deal with that uncertainty, those surprises, and everything else life decides to throw our way. Its never about knowing whats to come, and how to deal with it. It's more like, not knowing what's going to happen, but learning to deal with that, and the consequences that come of it. Get my drift?
Its the same way with decisions. I figure this: you never make WRONG decisions. You can make bad ones....but it was never wrong. I'm a big believer of fate and all that...but I also believe you're given the choice of how you go about it. Sorta like...you were meant to go that way, and a higher being than ourselves knows that, but they just want you to make that decision on your own anyway. Confusing, I know. But if you mess up, and make a bad decision in life, don't regret it. Because you were meant to make that mistake. Hey, I'm not saying what you did was okay. If you fucked up, you fucked up, no questions asked. But if you didn't make the decision in the first place, you wouldn't be where you are today. And while you may look at that in a good or bad perspective, it still works. You mess up for a reason. And one you mess up, you don't sit around and regret on why you did it. You figure out WHY you messed up, and IF you can fix it. If not, learn from it, move on, and be smart enough not to make the same mistake again.
I think I've grown. Matured a little...but not enough. Encountered experiences that have changed my ways of thinking, and reiterated previous ones. This summer has been - something else. In a way, it turned out unexpectedly, with the event that have happened. But in another, it turned out the way I thought it would. I learned a few new lessons, all the hard way, and finally learned that it's only going to get harder with time. Anyone that tells you its going to get better is a liar. Anyone that tells you that eventually, as you get older, things get easier - didn't tell you the truth. It only gets more difficult.
But another thing I've learned? You learn to deal.
I've always feared what was going to happen tomorrow. I was always scared my decisions would cause some disastorous effect, and therefore would completely unbalance my life. But now, it's not like that anymore.
No one know what's going to happen tomorrow, in an hour, or even in the next second. But there's no use in fearing that anymore. Uncertainty is a fundamental of life...we enter life not knowing, and leave it just the same. Along the way though, we learn to deal with that uncertainty, those surprises, and everything else life decides to throw our way. Its never about knowing whats to come, and how to deal with it. It's more like, not knowing what's going to happen, but learning to deal with that, and the consequences that come of it. Get my drift?
Its the same way with decisions. I figure this: you never make WRONG decisions. You can make bad ones....but it was never wrong. I'm a big believer of fate and all that...but I also believe you're given the choice of how you go about it. Sorta like...you were meant to go that way, and a higher being than ourselves knows that, but they just want you to make that decision on your own anyway. Confusing, I know. But if you mess up, and make a bad decision in life, don't regret it. Because you were meant to make that mistake. Hey, I'm not saying what you did was okay. If you fucked up, you fucked up, no questions asked. But if you didn't make the decision in the first place, you wouldn't be where you are today. And while you may look at that in a good or bad perspective, it still works. You mess up for a reason. And one you mess up, you don't sit around and regret on why you did it. You figure out WHY you messed up, and IF you can fix it. If not, learn from it, move on, and be smart enough not to make the same mistake again.
I think I've grown. Matured a little...but not enough. Encountered experiences that have changed my ways of thinking, and reiterated previous ones. This summer has been - something else. In a way, it turned out unexpectedly, with the event that have happened. But in another, it turned out the way I thought it would. I learned a few new lessons, all the hard way, and finally learned that it's only going to get harder with time. Anyone that tells you its going to get better is a liar. Anyone that tells you that eventually, as you get older, things get easier - didn't tell you the truth. It only gets more difficult.
But another thing I've learned? You learn to deal.