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hey guys
im kinda sad atm. i dunno why. im in the mood were i just plain feel like shit. there are reasons, yes. but im not gong to put them in here...mainly coz im not to proud of the reasons. so lets just not go there.
emma's screen name makes me feel so strange. its 'you know you are in love when you can't sleep becoz ur reality is better than your dreams'
which is happy 4 her...coz she is heaps in love with carl. but its sad 4 me, bocz its not like that. it has never been like that. sum people have everything they want, and others don't...i used to...but i lost it all.
i dunno guys i sound so depressing 2day. but i bet ur all used to it by now.
i got really angry today, so i sat down and did sum stream of consciousness writting. then i burnt it. then i went and jumped in the pool.
it helped. kinda.
i need my best friends. i have two people who i trust here...but one of them i can't tell whats wrong bcoz she would get hurt so badly by it. and i dont want to do that to her.
i was stupid to believe what i believed anyways.
it was my fault...it is my fault.
i wish i could just go hide in my room and only let whoever i wanted in. then i wouldnt have to deal with anything. i dont want to deal with nething atm.
neways. i hate writting this sort of shit. so im gunna go
i hope u all have great days
im kinda sad atm. i dunno why. im in the mood were i just plain feel like shit. there are reasons, yes. but im not gong to put them in here...mainly coz im not to proud of the reasons. so lets just not go there.
emma's screen name makes me feel so strange. its 'you know you are in love when you can't sleep becoz ur reality is better than your dreams'
which is happy 4 her...coz she is heaps in love with carl. but its sad 4 me, bocz its not like that. it has never been like that. sum people have everything they want, and others don't...i used to...but i lost it all.
i dunno guys i sound so depressing 2day. but i bet ur all used to it by now.
i got really angry today, so i sat down and did sum stream of consciousness writting. then i burnt it. then i went and jumped in the pool.
it helped. kinda.
i need my best friends. i have two people who i trust here...but one of them i can't tell whats wrong bcoz she would get hurt so badly by it. and i dont want to do that to her.
i was stupid to believe what i believed anyways.
it was my fault...it is my fault.
i wish i could just go hide in my room and only let whoever i wanted in. then i wouldnt have to deal with anything. i dont want to deal with nething atm.
neways. i hate writting this sort of shit. so im gunna go
i hope u all have great days