Letter Number 2
Finally, we have the second letter for my
10_lettersclaim: Ukitake/ Unohana. I'm liking this pairing, even if non slash is a rarity with me. If it works it works, you know? (even if it works Zaraki/ Unohana too.) Like the last one, this letter started with one prompt it managed to meander through other various topics as well, particularly love. It's not my fault that Love is also a prompt; when you are writing a couple love tends to come into it every so often.
Anyway, this is a response to Letter 1, which was 'Hate'. Now it's Ukitake to Unohana. This is #8: 'Time'.
Dearest Retsu,
Do not feel ashamed that you wish to see me; I would hope that that were always the case, even if it means sitting with me in the ward rather than out in the gardens, enjoying the sunshine. I know that this will never pass, that these times will never get any easier; I have known it since I first fully understood why my hair was white, why blood would fall from my lips in place of laughter like other children.
There is a limit on the time I can give you; I realise that you understand that, but still I must state it, for myself if not for you. If I had forever, it would be yours, without a moment’s hesitation. I would be yours, heart and soul, what little that it is. And even though that cannot be, even with my abbreviated time, I would be that for you while I am here.
If you wish to be angry with me, do so. There is no wrong in resenting me for the fact that I must leave you. You know that when we are hurt we lash out at those we perceived to have hurt us, whether they are at fault or not. It is only natural then that you would wish to hate me, though I choose to take it in a positive light, for if you would hate me so much for leaving you then your feelings towards me must be a match for the love I have for you. Maybe it is selfish to think of it as such, but you did give me leave to do so, right?
As it is, though I have strayed into that area, I would prefer not to think on such pessimistic matters. Whether I am ill or not, I shall enjoy spending time with you. When this stint ends, maybe I can convince you to stay with me a little longer, perhaps even dinner? I know that the sakura are blooming. We could have a viewing party, just the two of us, or others if you’d be more comfortable that way.
I shall have to end this here, for I can see you glaring at me from the doorway. I know I should be resting, but I seem to spend so much of my time asleep, and how could I let your letter go unanswered? That would be horribly rude of me. Besides, I cannot be too selfish and hog your time completely while I'm here, so if I write you letters then you can enjoy those while you are doing other things, even if it is just by carrying them with you.
I’ll put this by the window; I'm sure you’ll spot it next time you come and check on me. I’ll just pretend to be asleep while you read it. Don’t push yourself too hard today love. You can’t be everything for everyone either.
Be well my healer, my heart.
Jūshirō
10_lettersclaim: Ukitake/ Unohana. I'm liking this pairing, even if non slash is a rarity with me. If it works it works, you know? (even if it works Zaraki/ Unohana too.) Like the last one, this letter started with one prompt it managed to meander through other various topics as well, particularly love. It's not my fault that Love is also a prompt; when you are writing a couple love tends to come into it every so often.
Anyway, this is a response to Letter 1, which was 'Hate'. Now it's Ukitake to Unohana. This is #8: 'Time'.
Dearest Retsu,
Do not feel ashamed that you wish to see me; I would hope that that were always the case, even if it means sitting with me in the ward rather than out in the gardens, enjoying the sunshine. I know that this will never pass, that these times will never get any easier; I have known it since I first fully understood why my hair was white, why blood would fall from my lips in place of laughter like other children.
There is a limit on the time I can give you; I realise that you understand that, but still I must state it, for myself if not for you. If I had forever, it would be yours, without a moment’s hesitation. I would be yours, heart and soul, what little that it is. And even though that cannot be, even with my abbreviated time, I would be that for you while I am here.
If you wish to be angry with me, do so. There is no wrong in resenting me for the fact that I must leave you. You know that when we are hurt we lash out at those we perceived to have hurt us, whether they are at fault or not. It is only natural then that you would wish to hate me, though I choose to take it in a positive light, for if you would hate me so much for leaving you then your feelings towards me must be a match for the love I have for you. Maybe it is selfish to think of it as such, but you did give me leave to do so, right?
As it is, though I have strayed into that area, I would prefer not to think on such pessimistic matters. Whether I am ill or not, I shall enjoy spending time with you. When this stint ends, maybe I can convince you to stay with me a little longer, perhaps even dinner? I know that the sakura are blooming. We could have a viewing party, just the two of us, or others if you’d be more comfortable that way.
I shall have to end this here, for I can see you glaring at me from the doorway. I know I should be resting, but I seem to spend so much of my time asleep, and how could I let your letter go unanswered? That would be horribly rude of me. Besides, I cannot be too selfish and hog your time completely while I'm here, so if I write you letters then you can enjoy those while you are doing other things, even if it is just by carrying them with you.
I’ll put this by the window; I'm sure you’ll spot it next time you come and check on me. I’ll just pretend to be asleep while you read it. Don’t push yourself too hard today love. You can’t be everything for everyone either.
Be well my healer, my heart.
Jūshirō