your whispers between kisses... show me all that i could be
deja vu... Christopher was upset Sunday night. Supposedly it was work related. So, I had to close that night. He picks me up like he usually does. We get to my house and that's when it happened. Outside my kitchen... the very same place it had occurred not too long ago. It went something like this, "I've been cheating on you with her." My heart dropped. My mind started racing. It was that familiar feeling that I had thought I had escaped. I broke down. He said "I don't want to be with you." I cried. He cried. I tried to understand, but I couldn't. He was about to leave when strangely enough, he lost his contact lens. We tried looking for it. Apparently, since it was really late at night... he said he would be unable to drive home safely. I told him he could spend the night and that I would go with him to Lens Crafters to get new glasses the next morning. So, he stayed. While I was in my room with him, his phone rings. It's "her". I couldn't stay in there listening to him talk to her, so I went in the living room with my blankets and stuff. I had planned to sleep out there. A while later, Chris comes to get me. He wants me to sleep with him, so we keep each other warm. WTF. I go. He holds me. Normally I fall asleep extremely fast when he's there, but not last night. I couldn't sleep. Today we went to get his glasses. He told me he wanted me to leave for school sooner. It hurt. However, he said we could stay together until I move. I'm not sure what to think anymore.