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massive amounts of carne asada and alcohol on a sunday night is a flat out bad idea. Don't get me wrong, they were both good and I found out mixing triple sec and mountain dew is my favorite thing ever, but the massive amount part wasn't so good. I looked like a zombie walking around the house this morning. I got home around 2 and couldn't fall asleep so I called lolo and then after I hung up, still couldn't fall asleep which leads me to my next topic.
I started writing a whole thing on how I think I'm destined to be alone but I decided to talk about the source of that problem. I have low self-esteem, it's that simple. If I'm really going to rise above this, it's going to take a total change in lifestyle because I realized that it's not about how skinny I get or whatever, it's about how I treat myself and how I act. Being slim wouldn't make me happy except for the fact that it'd be one less thing to worry about. What'd really make me happy out of it all would be going to the gym everyday, keeping active and feeling alive.
If you didn't notice, I bold a line from every paragraph I write pretty much highlighting the main topic
ponder.comment.discuss.
much love
EDIT: my goal by next monday is to lose 6lbs. yesterday I weighed in at 286 (-36lbs). It'll be tough and I'll have to become the machine I was when I started but thats the way I like it. just need to stay focused...encouragement and love would sure help *wink*
I started writing a whole thing on how I think I'm destined to be alone but I decided to talk about the source of that problem. I have low self-esteem, it's that simple. If I'm really going to rise above this, it's going to take a total change in lifestyle because I realized that it's not about how skinny I get or whatever, it's about how I treat myself and how I act. Being slim wouldn't make me happy except for the fact that it'd be one less thing to worry about. What'd really make me happy out of it all would be going to the gym everyday, keeping active and feeling alive.
If you didn't notice, I bold a line from every paragraph I write pretty much highlighting the main topic
ponder.comment.discuss.
much love
EDIT: my goal by next monday is to lose 6lbs. yesterday I weighed in at 286 (-36lbs). It'll be tough and I'll have to become the machine I was when I started but thats the way I like it. just need to stay focused...encouragement and love would sure help *wink*