I'm in detox...
...and on autopilot.
Right now, Lauren's enjoying a fake tuna melt.
I've had alot of Tilt, and beer, and Sparks.
I feel like I've lost something incredibly important, which seems silly, in a way.
On top of all that, I went to visit Marc's grave yesterday, don't know what to say about that...
I'm handling everything pretty decently, all in all, no stupid shit yet, and
I guess
I'm just lucky to have such amazing family, and such amazing friends, and a certain boy who sees me in way that I never imagined seeing myself.
Of course,
I feel like throwing up
I don't know if it's from the alcohol, illness, or emotion
But
The truth is
I've been through worse than this
And I'll live to laugh about this
But
I'm through with running.
xo