fuck life is weird...
what a strange trip its been
so now I am in a relationship again. this time with suzi, A girl I've known as long as amy who lives in indiana. its still a weird feeling fo rme.
me & amy stopped talking to each other for a week. ( I think it was a week anyway). then yesterday she wrote me on the bastard myspace page. we strated talking again, & looks like we are freinds again.
it's funny , when I saw the email from her, my entire body just shook like ..I don't knwo what & my mind was going crazy, my heat was beating like a neal pert drum solo...I hadn't even opend the email yet at that point
I'd be a liar if I said I didn't love her still. my reaction proved it. I went through every emotion wiht her, including a very short period of hate ( ehich lasted about 20 min lol)
SHe is happy. I am glad she is happy.
I'm happy but scared shitless.
what if Suzi can't handle a relationship wiht me & does the same thing? what if I always expect her to do the same thing & seh doesn't & therefore I screw up the relationship
god I am so fucked up
why in thehell would anybody wnat me anywayz! I can't blame someone to get away from me to be honest..
ugh
sorry
so now I am in a relationship again. this time with suzi, A girl I've known as long as amy who lives in indiana. its still a weird feeling fo rme.
me & amy stopped talking to each other for a week. ( I think it was a week anyway). then yesterday she wrote me on the bastard myspace page. we strated talking again, & looks like we are freinds again.
it's funny , when I saw the email from her, my entire body just shook like ..I don't knwo what & my mind was going crazy, my heat was beating like a neal pert drum solo...I hadn't even opend the email yet at that point
I'd be a liar if I said I didn't love her still. my reaction proved it. I went through every emotion wiht her, including a very short period of hate ( ehich lasted about 20 min lol)
SHe is happy. I am glad she is happy.
I'm happy but scared shitless.
what if Suzi can't handle a relationship wiht me & does the same thing? what if I always expect her to do the same thing & seh doesn't & therefore I screw up the relationship
god I am so fucked up
why in thehell would anybody wnat me anywayz! I can't blame someone to get away from me to be honest..
ugh
sorry