This may be the last time I update this

[blakheart]

maybe I dunno

not like anyone ever reads this anywayz, the only person who ever reads & comments on any post I do is Amy

I feel like i am losing everything

Everything is just fucking up

everything has torn away at my relationship wiht the only person that has ever mattered to me
& I'm about to lose her over this shit

once again, like always, I try to so hard to get things to gether, I try so hard to to get all out of life I can, I try so hard to play this fucked up game I was born into
only to lose every singel fucking time

well, I'm sick of playing the game & losing
I'm sick of giving my all & losing it all
I'm sick of waking up & wishing I never did
I'm sick of finally finding happiness & it slips away from me

if another entry pops up , maybe things improved
if not eventually I'll just deletre this & every oither thing I have online & just give up

I'm just so tired

& still after all this the only person who will notice is Amy

Oh my god amy
I lov eyou so much & I don't want to lose you
have I?