Fuck...
I feel like I"m trying to hard & doing everything for nothing.
no matter what I do
it will always blow up in my face in the end.
after reading amy's live journal today, I feel like I'm keeping her prisoner here now.
I feel like shit casues she misses home so much & hates it here ( though that has changed back & forth a few times)
she says she doesn't want to leave me
but in my life I'm so use to everyone I care about going away or just plain hurting me I kinda expect her to do it too. I geuss that's wrong to feel that way.
but last time she felt like this she left me, maybe she'll do it again.
I'm hoping once we move out of that little shit hole things will get better.
either I'll be happy for the rest of my life wiht her or I'll be alone like I always am.
no matter what I do
it will always blow up in my face in the end.
after reading amy's live journal today, I feel like I'm keeping her prisoner here now.
I feel like shit casues she misses home so much & hates it here ( though that has changed back & forth a few times)
she says she doesn't want to leave me
but in my life I'm so use to everyone I care about going away or just plain hurting me I kinda expect her to do it too. I geuss that's wrong to feel that way.
but last time she felt like this she left me, maybe she'll do it again.
I'm hoping once we move out of that little shit hole things will get better.
either I'll be happy for the rest of my life wiht her or I'll be alone like I always am.