Good lord.

Jul 20, 2004 15:00

I have never been so ashamed of myself ( Read more... )

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niloveubassline July 20 2004, 13:13:38 UTC
I'm sure that this long after you've posted this you see that I am not furious at you because of stupid shit, I'm just worried because of what you've been becoming. I love you Blake, you know that. I worry that the decisions you've been making have been destroying your friendships and most of all I worry that you're fucking your life up. If I didn't care about you I would just laugh it off when you are stoned all the time and don't get a job or do anything in school. I have grown up with you and you're my best friend, so I know you're better than that. You're smarter than me and I hate to see all of your potential go to waste over something as stupid as getting high or dropping out of school. I get on you because I know how great you are and I know that you can be doing so much with your life, and also, because I know how hard it is to get started when you think you have nothing to live for. In senior year of high school I was taking 2 remedial classes and weighed around 230. When I started caring about school and losing weight it felt useless, since all I had cared about before was writing and I thought that would be my life, but I decided that if I tried to improve myself then maybe I wouldn't be so lonely and life would be easier... obviously things weren't so simple, as you can see by the fact I was a lying, insecure piece of shit all of my first year of college and a horrible boyfriend to Christy for months... It's taken me a long time to be thankful for what I have and to realize that I can make a change in my own life, and I want you to realize that you have so much to be thankful for, and your life will be so much better when you start applying yourself to things besides music... I mean, you're cute (Don't disagree with me, everyone knows you're a cutiepie), you're more intelligent than almost anyone I know, you're a wonderful songwriter, you've got wonderful friends who love you.

All I want is for you to live up to what everyone who loves you knows you can be.

-Grant

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Well now that you changed the main post most of this is void... niloveubassline July 20 2004, 13:18:53 UTC
but I still love you and just know that people get on you because they care.

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