Nov 21, 2011 22:40
Chumley's cruise was very much fun - even though I didn't go off of the ship. The main activities to do off ship were: snorkeling and/or scuba diving, sitting on a beach, or visiting the town to view the crushing poverty and marvel at how paradise itself is filled with pain. The one major complaint I had was that the food was rather bland, even at the good restaurants.
I met a lot of great guys on the trip. Most of which I've already "friended" on Facebook. I became obsessed with one guy, but gave up on him quickly so that it didn't destroy my vacation. I met a couple, John & Mark, from Dallas. They were amazing guys.
An innocent question right before I got on my plane has kept me thinking - probably too much (as is my wont). Clark, a very nice guy who always had a nice thing to say to me, asked, in what was supposed to be a flattering way, "Why is a handsome guy like you not taken yet?" I gave some half-assed answer about not leaving my house, blah blah blah. But the truth is that I don't know. I've talked about this with my doctor and a relation isn't the most important thing for me. But I do miss having someone in my life. And it's been a bunch of years now. Almost all of my friends have partners now. I don't leave my house much. The guys I meet that I'm interested in are either partnered or not interested in me. It's the same old story; I really don't know how best to meet anyone. It's one of the reasons why I announced earlier that I've given up looking for someone.
And now I'm in the doldrums that occur after a great vacation.
So, ya know...