Senior Project Presentation
I am doing a presentation on my paper I have been working on the entire semester that is supposed to embody all the skills I have learned as an undergrad in the Sociology department at HSU tomorrow, and I am feeling a wide range of emotions about the whole thing. I have never worked harder or spent more time on a paper. I am still not finished, but I think it is coming out pretty good. It's all about soccer hooliganism and their impact on society. This is one of the last major things I have to do as an undergrad and I don't know how to feel about all of it. It's crazy to me that I going to be graduating college 2 weeks from now, and have no real plans on what I am going to do afterwards, which is also freaking me the fuck out, but at the same time I feel really happy, sad, and excited about finally being finished with all of this shit. There was definitely a point in my life when I use to get migraines every day from stress that I really thought that I would never actually finish college, and now I am fucking 2 weeks away. I know graduating college in this day and age isn't as big of an accomplishment as it once was and that there are probably millions of college graduates out in the world that are total fucking idiots, but I am still proud of myself for at least accomplishing something that I have been socialized to believe is a major accomplishment.
I am moving back in with my mom in LA when this shit is over, which I'm also feeling increasingly apprehensive about the whole thing the closer it gets. As far as living with parents goes I'm sure living with my mom is much better than most parents, but its still going to be kind of shitty to have to abide by someone else's rules. I am also nervous about the fact that I have become a total stoner now and my mom has already has called me out on it, and has seen how fucked up my dad's life was by drugs that she will probably equate the two and most likely worry too much and bitch to me a lot. Although, it will probably be for the best. I definitely plan on having a conversation with her about the whole thing when I move back down. I have also had an increasing desire to try and talk to my dad again for the first time in years about his life, his drugs use, etc.
Fuck this caffeine got me feeling all kinds of shit right now people are fucking lying to themselves if they don't think caffeine is a drug. (more updates soon...probably)
I am moving back in with my mom in LA when this shit is over, which I'm also feeling increasingly apprehensive about the whole thing the closer it gets. As far as living with parents goes I'm sure living with my mom is much better than most parents, but its still going to be kind of shitty to have to abide by someone else's rules. I am also nervous about the fact that I have become a total stoner now and my mom has already has called me out on it, and has seen how fucked up my dad's life was by drugs that she will probably equate the two and most likely worry too much and bitch to me a lot. Although, it will probably be for the best. I definitely plan on having a conversation with her about the whole thing when I move back down. I have also had an increasing desire to try and talk to my dad again for the first time in years about his life, his drugs use, etc.
Fuck this caffeine got me feeling all kinds of shit right now people are fucking lying to themselves if they don't think caffeine is a drug. (more updates soon...probably)