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First week of school is over with I am not sure what to make of it at this point. I feel confident I can do well in all my classes like I intend too. Although I have yet to really do anything for any of my classes that I should do. I ordered a few of my books online, but the fucking post office here never leaves me my packages and comes at bullshit times or leave notes that they came when they really didn't.
Finally broke down and bought a 360 after debating wether or not I should do it for awhile now. I just couldn't handle trying to play regular xbox anymore, yet I am a bit worried I may get too distracted by this shit, and it interferes with me doing other perhaps more important shit, so I got to watch myself. Been spending money way to casually lately like I got more on the way or something. I want a job, but I don't know if I can handle being occupied with that all my classes and the clubs or whatever other extracurricular shit I can join to help me improve chances of getting into a Grad School. I don't like the idea of not having any free time to just chill out.
Got hollered at by what I am guessing where high school bitches in a limo probably going to some silly as dance or some shit. Shit made me laugh, but also kind of depressed me wondering if I am ever as happy as they seemed to be. I haven't really done much, but play with the new 360 lately I guess thats to be expected, yet it makes me feel kind of guilty to be spending that much time sitting around on my ass not doing shit. Although shit does provide me with some joy, so fuck it. I really need to try and be more active in talking to people in my classes that I didn't know before coming up here especially broads. I wish I was more perceptive in figuring out how women feel about me, but I am sure most people feel that way. It seems like for the most part the longer I go without a relationship to more self conscious and anxious I become about the idea of trying to pursue and make one work. Fuck I need to start getting all this school shit figured out for this semester since this first week I basically didn't try and do shit but show up. I almost feel like next week is when shit really starts, so I got to get myself more prepared. I guess I will go play some more 360, or try and sleep both of which I have been really into doing lately!
PS. listening to this R&B/Neo-Soul really makes me wish I could fucking sing... Damn that shit would be really Fucking tight
Finally broke down and bought a 360 after debating wether or not I should do it for awhile now. I just couldn't handle trying to play regular xbox anymore, yet I am a bit worried I may get too distracted by this shit, and it interferes with me doing other perhaps more important shit, so I got to watch myself. Been spending money way to casually lately like I got more on the way or something. I want a job, but I don't know if I can handle being occupied with that all my classes and the clubs or whatever other extracurricular shit I can join to help me improve chances of getting into a Grad School. I don't like the idea of not having any free time to just chill out.
Got hollered at by what I am guessing where high school bitches in a limo probably going to some silly as dance or some shit. Shit made me laugh, but also kind of depressed me wondering if I am ever as happy as they seemed to be. I haven't really done much, but play with the new 360 lately I guess thats to be expected, yet it makes me feel kind of guilty to be spending that much time sitting around on my ass not doing shit. Although shit does provide me with some joy, so fuck it. I really need to try and be more active in talking to people in my classes that I didn't know before coming up here especially broads. I wish I was more perceptive in figuring out how women feel about me, but I am sure most people feel that way. It seems like for the most part the longer I go without a relationship to more self conscious and anxious I become about the idea of trying to pursue and make one work. Fuck I need to start getting all this school shit figured out for this semester since this first week I basically didn't try and do shit but show up. I almost feel like next week is when shit really starts, so I got to get myself more prepared. I guess I will go play some more 360, or try and sleep both of which I have been really into doing lately!
PS. listening to this R&B/Neo-Soul really makes me wish I could fucking sing... Damn that shit would be really Fucking tight