man oh man
so i guess i havent written in here in the longest time . there has been a good reason why, i have'nt really been around well, i have i just haven't had time. some people might find that hard to belive but its way true. I HAD a job but i left it due to the fact of my overruling of my emotions and the fact that febuary is a horrible month all through the 5th of march. = [ /// well anyways i hope that that will one day come to a end .
so lets start off with the first week of work-
felt like i wassdying everyday and tried to convince jerry to give me the car keys so i can leave and pick him up later on in the day but he made stick with it
thanks for the effort jerry i should have stuck with it but im a dumbass.
and then i started to drink thinking hey since im not driving anymore i can slam back a few beers and not like drive anywhere. so drinking turned into one night of drinking into 19 days straight of drinking. and today i woke up sober as hell and i fell like i am drunk ,(its hard to belive). well anyways i guess i have been a phone junkie lately and i have to cut it out cause i shouldnt be a phone junkie.well theres a good reason why i have been caught up in the phone activites. which consist of talking to girls - (crystal) & (sonya) man these two girls are possibly two of the radest girls i have had conversations with in a long time next to the one and only (kiM) queen of making my life much more euphoric.man i miss that girl if there was one thing i would want back more then my ex-girlfriend , it is her friendship. But hey good things never last and i know and everyone tells me i shouldnt think about it as often as i do but the thing is its like i have yet to meet a girl with such enthusiasm or energy to make me hapy and make me smile. I once told my doc man as far back as i can remember cleary ( a few months ) back i cant remeber smiling about anything , and i thnk back and think about all the times my older brother try to cheer me up and like my little brother also used to brinjg me things to like keep me doing things to keep my mind off of certain people. Man life does suck sometimes and it really good but as far as i have noticed it has sucked alot in the last year. i think its time to like get away fromwhere i am i need to relocate i think im better off if i went to another city like san francisco if for anything like a few months or so. I NEED A JOB . I NEED MONEY . AND I NEED MY LICENCSE BACk. well the license ill have in a a few weeks as soon as the good old car gets smogged and i go to van nuys an take car of that bench warrant . so i figure i havent driven for over two weeks now and im not as crazy as i thought i was gonna be thanks to jerry and marleen coming over and keeping me company and drinkin wit me . well let see my dad keeps pissing me off cause hes off the patch and he keeps bugging me for a cigarette / and he gets mad when i tell him i dont have any he know i have some but i hide em now . hehehehe . thats what he gets for stealing one from me . its either smoke and die or quit and live alittle longer. thta guy just never takes it serious i guess . well what am i to do i told him if he wanted a cig hed have to fight me for it . hehe . i happy adam finally might be getting a job that guy will be siked working for another chain store cough cough (pennylane) the most corporate independent store NO OFFense adam . well in other news i have been trying to write more songs i need to get my shit together to be able to write good music but i have some issues to sing about so that will help a bit. i have more time on the comp being that my brother is rarely home now (girlfriend things) hah. its cool im happy for him he needs a girlfriend he is a way nice guy, he buys me all kinds of stuff without me asking him for it. well i think its time for me to end this entry and another thing in memory ! "Won't you be my neighbor?" R.i.p Mr.ROgERS
so lets start off with the first week of work-
felt like i wassdying everyday and tried to convince jerry to give me the car keys so i can leave and pick him up later on in the day but he made stick with it
thanks for the effort jerry i should have stuck with it but im a dumbass.
and then i started to drink thinking hey since im not driving anymore i can slam back a few beers and not like drive anywhere. so drinking turned into one night of drinking into 19 days straight of drinking. and today i woke up sober as hell and i fell like i am drunk ,(its hard to belive). well anyways i guess i have been a phone junkie lately and i have to cut it out cause i shouldnt be a phone junkie.well theres a good reason why i have been caught up in the phone activites. which consist of talking to girls - (crystal) & (sonya) man these two girls are possibly two of the radest girls i have had conversations with in a long time next to the one and only (kiM) queen of making my life much more euphoric.man i miss that girl if there was one thing i would want back more then my ex-girlfriend , it is her friendship. But hey good things never last and i know and everyone tells me i shouldnt think about it as often as i do but the thing is its like i have yet to meet a girl with such enthusiasm or energy to make me hapy and make me smile. I once told my doc man as far back as i can remember cleary ( a few months ) back i cant remeber smiling about anything , and i thnk back and think about all the times my older brother try to cheer me up and like my little brother also used to brinjg me things to like keep me doing things to keep my mind off of certain people. Man life does suck sometimes and it really good but as far as i have noticed it has sucked alot in the last year. i think its time to like get away fromwhere i am i need to relocate i think im better off if i went to another city like san francisco if for anything like a few months or so. I NEED A JOB . I NEED MONEY . AND I NEED MY LICENCSE BACk. well the license ill have in a a few weeks as soon as the good old car gets smogged and i go to van nuys an take car of that bench warrant . so i figure i havent driven for over two weeks now and im not as crazy as i thought i was gonna be thanks to jerry and marleen coming over and keeping me company and drinkin wit me . well let see my dad keeps pissing me off cause hes off the patch and he keeps bugging me for a cigarette / and he gets mad when i tell him i dont have any he know i have some but i hide em now . hehehehe . thats what he gets for stealing one from me . its either smoke and die or quit and live alittle longer. thta guy just never takes it serious i guess . well what am i to do i told him if he wanted a cig hed have to fight me for it . hehe . i happy adam finally might be getting a job that guy will be siked working for another chain store cough cough (pennylane) the most corporate independent store NO OFFense adam . well in other news i have been trying to write more songs i need to get my shit together to be able to write good music but i have some issues to sing about so that will help a bit. i have more time on the comp being that my brother is rarely home now (girlfriend things) hah. its cool im happy for him he needs a girlfriend he is a way nice guy, he buys me all kinds of stuff without me asking him for it. well i think its time for me to end this entry and another thing in memory ! "Won't you be my neighbor?" R.i.p Mr.ROgERS