emotion
Threwout this entire day i have felt empty inside on the outside im cold and alone though there are plenty of people around me. I can hear my own thaughts as if they were a voice talking to me ensuring my doubts and fears as i stand or sit whichever the case may be knowing the world i have tryed to hard to put together for myself is destined to be distroyed by the one's i care about or someone close to someone i care about. A blank stair is all i have as time goes by without notice and my dipression grows with each moment but not like normal one that envelups me from the inside out and yet i continue my blank stair. My feet grow ever colder by the moment sounds of music about me in atempt to comfert myself yes as nice as it may sound the effort is but a failer. I am at a loss of what to do what do i have left what am i for money, sex, apearance? Why does any of that matter and why does everyone want that from me so badly why cant i just be left alone in my own little world i try so hard to build just so i can try and piece together a slight sence of happyness and hope that im worth something. *sigh* my worth on this world it seams is for others to decide and not my own and yet everyone wonders why i disapear like i do well then i hope my little speach cleared some things up for everyone.