(no subject)
i dont know how i feel anymore..im so confused about so many diffrent things..i thought i liked this guy but i think i liked the idea of him more then the guy himself we talked about alot of things and i told him we couldnt be..but after that i feelt bad and why i dont know...things never seem right anymore with anything...i think its the way i am
its the way my mom is ..if we think we hurt someone or done something wrong we have to feel bad right away and blame ourslefves.. im also starting not to feel like blake any more..im 18 why should i care who i am? but i do..
i dont feel like blake and i dont feel like M ..i just feel like this guy-girl whos never gonna understand myself.
im going through all this and around the same time my brother and sister n law are going through a phase of there own.. they are gettinga bad habbit of telling myself and mom what to do and it aint pretty. they are both having some issues and i hope they are getting all the help they need.
having a strong love is one thing but being sick when they are away for a small amount of time just isnt healthy in my books.
im not sure how i did it but ive managed to crawl back into mysell. somedays im good to talk to anyone in the world and others i just cant do it. i just wish it was time for school so i cant train myself to come out of my shell again.
im going to go shower and write somemore stuff later.
its the way my mom is ..if we think we hurt someone or done something wrong we have to feel bad right away and blame ourslefves.. im also starting not to feel like blake any more..im 18 why should i care who i am? but i do..
i dont feel like blake and i dont feel like M ..i just feel like this guy-girl whos never gonna understand myself.
im going through all this and around the same time my brother and sister n law are going through a phase of there own.. they are gettinga bad habbit of telling myself and mom what to do and it aint pretty. they are both having some issues and i hope they are getting all the help they need.
having a strong love is one thing but being sick when they are away for a small amount of time just isnt healthy in my books.
im not sure how i did it but ive managed to crawl back into mysell. somedays im good to talk to anyone in the world and others i just cant do it. i just wish it was time for school so i cant train myself to come out of my shell again.
im going to go shower and write somemore stuff later.