where i am at
how closure does heal the heart...
okay well i didn't actually recieve any information whcih led to closure - but rather it was the decision making process that did.
so sandys said he did invite me to his 21st, however he thinks like me quite a few others didn't get his sms invite bcs he sent it during the storms. sooooo he is not the dickhead i thought he was on monday night
i will not be attending however - this is best for me. I need to let go, seeing him will just make it harder for myself - he knows this. We talked last night, so we have said goodbye and goodluck to each other until we can stand being in each others presence again.
i know i have had trouble getting through this and over this - thank you to every one who has offered help, said kind words etc. i simply needed to get to a place within myslef that allowed me to let go - so what if this life lesson took 4 months - at least i was trying to learn it, and now i have learnt it, also lots of little ones along the way.
maybe now i can go back to being me (however, some things have changed for good). im going to be spending alot of time chilling with myself in the lead up to spain. I need to get myself firmly rooted
so yeah that is where i am at
okay well i didn't actually recieve any information whcih led to closure - but rather it was the decision making process that did.
so sandys said he did invite me to his 21st, however he thinks like me quite a few others didn't get his sms invite bcs he sent it during the storms. sooooo he is not the dickhead i thought he was on monday night
i will not be attending however - this is best for me. I need to let go, seeing him will just make it harder for myself - he knows this. We talked last night, so we have said goodbye and goodluck to each other until we can stand being in each others presence again.
i know i have had trouble getting through this and over this - thank you to every one who has offered help, said kind words etc. i simply needed to get to a place within myslef that allowed me to let go - so what if this life lesson took 4 months - at least i was trying to learn it, and now i have learnt it, also lots of little ones along the way.
maybe now i can go back to being me (however, some things have changed for good). im going to be spending alot of time chilling with myself in the lead up to spain. I need to get myself firmly rooted
so yeah that is where i am at