care to join my pity party?
My heart is just empty right now. I don't feel much of anything.
Today has just been one big suckfest. Josh called in the morning, which was nice, because usually he just calls at 2200.
But he started crying when he had to get going... I want to hug him so bad. I can't even begin to comprehend how hard it is for him over there.
I miss him so much... getting out of bed every morning is getting harder and harder. I just want to sleep until he gets home. I cannot breathe until he gets back. I had a lot of shit that I was pissed at him about when he was still here, but now it all seems stupid. As long as it doesn't continue when he gets back of course.
I don't even know when he is coming home anymore. Whenever they can I guess.
My mind is reeling. I don't want to work tomorrow. It helps the time go by, but I am miserable the whole time I am there.
I just want to go home. I need family and friends so bad right now. Hearing their voices doesn't help anymore.
I miss how things were.
Today has just been one big suckfest. Josh called in the morning, which was nice, because usually he just calls at 2200.
But he started crying when he had to get going... I want to hug him so bad. I can't even begin to comprehend how hard it is for him over there.
I miss him so much... getting out of bed every morning is getting harder and harder. I just want to sleep until he gets home. I cannot breathe until he gets back. I had a lot of shit that I was pissed at him about when he was still here, but now it all seems stupid. As long as it doesn't continue when he gets back of course.
I don't even know when he is coming home anymore. Whenever they can I guess.
My mind is reeling. I don't want to work tomorrow. It helps the time go by, but I am miserable the whole time I am there.
I just want to go home. I need family and friends so bad right now. Hearing their voices doesn't help anymore.
I miss how things were.