I Never Knew
2 months ago today he asked me out...2 months and 3 days ago i met him but i never knew that i would fall in love with jerrid alan robinson. i miss him so much its sickening to anyone but me. i love him more than life itself and dont know if im going to be able to go on without him. i cant help that im depressed alot, but im trying to fix it. im trying to be a happy cheerful person. i dont try to get jealous but im so scared that someone pretty than me with nicer boobs and a smaller waist will come along and see how amazing he is. well that didnt happen but hes still gone. im going to do wahtever it takes to get him back. i will be a happy cheerful person i will change i will get better but as of right now i dont feel like getting out of bed or leaving the house at all. all i want to do is die. i thought about running my car off the road on the way home from the park, but i chickened out. i couldnt do it i was to scared. im afraid to die...but its all i want. other than him to change his mind. i hope to god and everything else holy that he will take me back...im going to give it a little time but im going to make it work im going to change im going to be happy im going to do it. i will not lose the single most important thing in my life for good