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[blaise8807]

i fall more in love with him with everyday that passes
i havent felt this way in so long
since....well yeah
but somethings.....i dont want to say missing
im still trying to get used to a boyfriend that treats me like a princess
ive never had that before
i had something close to that
but that was then
i still consider it the best summer of my life
and certain things still get to me
i cant go to a bowling alley to this day
or listen to certain songs
its hard to admit but i havent fully forgotten
there are some things i will never forget
love will do that to you i guess
and i feel horrible
i love jerrid more than anything...hes all i have right now
im so afraid hes going to leave me like everyone else has
everyone who has ever loved me
my friends included
has left me
has ended up hating me
every guy ive ever loved
wants nothing to do with me
you say were friends....but were really not i suppose
and you...you say you hate me and want me gone...but i cant help but wonder how long will it last

i had alot on my mind....this isnt even half of it
i just had to vent a little ya know

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