a Calm continued and maybe some other shit.
So I haven't updated save for maybe a shit load of poetry and lyrics for the passed couple of months. Well lifes been a crazy ass emotonal rush for a while. First I lose my job, then I lose my girl, then my parents are being asses about everything. It's been kind of lame. So about a month or so ago I start talking to Sayer a girl I met acouple of years ago. We didn't really get along then, I was suisidal and she was well don't really know what happened but i guess she was borderline and we couldn't talk to each other. So we stoped talking, well we talked on and off, but she stayed on my list. So after about 6 or 7 months of not talking to her I randomly IMed her, and we started talking and we've both changed alot. So you know I'm not ready for much because of Jen and such. At the same time she's in the same oat because of her ex's, So we started talking again and we get along just fine, She's really bee great to me the passed couple of days and I'm srtating to like her alot. She's caused this sort of release inside me thats turning me around, almost a month no smoking and I'm starting to work out now, planning on going for a run later. it's not a bad one it's actualy good. I'll finish later, I have to go now.
So COntinueing, Sayer is an awsome girl, we get along so well and we flirt alot. Anyway i don't know what she did, but I'm happier some how with my self, really verry much happier. I don't know whats going on for a few days I was horribly Emotional and now I'm fine. I guess Tony Reincarnated again, this time he comes in new and improved "fuck you mode" where the point of it is to piss people off, while maintaining my good boy side. Due to my passed job i no longer come in fun size though. moving on Sayer, well I talked to her and she;s not ready for a relationship and It's ok with me, thats the strange part, I don't know if I am just bottling things more or if I'm just changing. I hope I'm changing for the better. Anyway since my last post I think I've been completely wasted a total of 8 times, barfed 2ice, tot he desert 3 times, New friends, Jack and John. Last night was funny as hell, we were getting drunk and two chicks came over. So we started drinking more, 20 something beers and 4 shots later, I'm singin, Jack and john are dancing, then we desided to tackle his couch and well, broke it. Then we smoked more hookah, it was all just good times, boogies drinking, and stupid shit, all in all an eventful sunday. Now I'm sitting here Nurcing a hang over and talking to friends. I've been in a great mood though, hopefully it'll last.
I think I want to gt into welding and motorcycle building, i think it would be awsome. I don't see my self as having a really long currier planned out like lawyers or doctor's do, something where I can get my hands on something and make it something else. Sounds like something I'd do, anyway looking at tatoo ideas, going with my tradition of pissing people off I'm getting a pentacle on my back, arm somewhere, and get the Betty page Devil chick on my back, mayb. I was thinking my guitar and snake idea, also talking to George yestrerday I came up with an apple with a bite taken out of it. I don't know yet, but I'll keep coming up with more, the pentacle would piss people off something nice, atleast some over religius people i know. Anyway off to make food, hopefully I'll finaly make a habbit of updating.
So COntinueing, Sayer is an awsome girl, we get along so well and we flirt alot. Anyway i don't know what she did, but I'm happier some how with my self, really verry much happier. I don't know whats going on for a few days I was horribly Emotional and now I'm fine. I guess Tony Reincarnated again, this time he comes in new and improved "fuck you mode" where the point of it is to piss people off, while maintaining my good boy side. Due to my passed job i no longer come in fun size though. moving on Sayer, well I talked to her and she;s not ready for a relationship and It's ok with me, thats the strange part, I don't know if I am just bottling things more or if I'm just changing. I hope I'm changing for the better. Anyway since my last post I think I've been completely wasted a total of 8 times, barfed 2ice, tot he desert 3 times, New friends, Jack and John. Last night was funny as hell, we were getting drunk and two chicks came over. So we started drinking more, 20 something beers and 4 shots later, I'm singin, Jack and john are dancing, then we desided to tackle his couch and well, broke it. Then we smoked more hookah, it was all just good times, boogies drinking, and stupid shit, all in all an eventful sunday. Now I'm sitting here Nurcing a hang over and talking to friends. I've been in a great mood though, hopefully it'll last.
I think I want to gt into welding and motorcycle building, i think it would be awsome. I don't see my self as having a really long currier planned out like lawyers or doctor's do, something where I can get my hands on something and make it something else. Sounds like something I'd do, anyway looking at tatoo ideas, going with my tradition of pissing people off I'm getting a pentacle on my back, arm somewhere, and get the Betty page Devil chick on my back, mayb. I was thinking my guitar and snake idea, also talking to George yestrerday I came up with an apple with a bite taken out of it. I don't know yet, but I'll keep coming up with more, the pentacle would piss people off something nice, atleast some over religius people i know. Anyway off to make food, hopefully I'll finaly make a habbit of updating.