Trueth as of late
I think I'm Bipolar or something...... Bah. Last night I went through so many mood swings it really was taking it's toll on me. I have a huge ass head ache this morning, I can barely walk or type. I wasn't really drunk eather. Anyway so yesterday was Vday I hate Vday it clows, baaahhh, so I guess for a while things have been sucking, just that now I have less time to write in here. I've been writing alot of poetry. Right now I'm over come in Apathy it's pretty interesting, a while back i hung out with Tony and his girlfriend, and I don't know it just felt really strange, I felt really overcome by something. It was pretty interesting, but I don't know i just didn't feel like talking to anyone. Then theres My philosophy Class which for now rules even though I'm suposed to write a paper on something and i forgot what. But theres a bunch of cool people.
Lately I've been hanging around pat and his girlfriend, and i don't know that took it's toll on me too, I think for the first time i actualy said I wanted to be home, maybe it's because she's cool enough for me to like, that and I didn't feel like I just didn' feel like hanging around someone and their girlfriend and another guy, makes me feel stupid.
My mom put my uncle in Rehab the other day so she's been a bit sad and everything. My Grandma calls non stop and she's anoying me, love er to death, anoys me it's the way it is with me.
I don't know whats wrong really, I'm fine I've been having good times I just don't feel up to doing anything right now, I'm depressed I want to I want to go somewhere and curl up and stay there for a while, I need a Vacation from San Diego. I miss Leslie, and I miss alot of my old friends lately, I don't know the more I start to thnk of things the pointless it gets. I mean people complain about how they don't have friends and things of that sort, and they forget that I never stoped caring, it's like I'm not here all together. Everyone makes me feel invissible, and i guess it's this thinking that gets me stepped on.
Anyway people that have been here. Love you Val, Summer, that other dude I forget his name, haha, Shorty she's awsome. and i guess thats it for now. Have a good day everyone.
Lately I've been hanging around pat and his girlfriend, and i don't know that took it's toll on me too, I think for the first time i actualy said I wanted to be home, maybe it's because she's cool enough for me to like, that and I didn't feel like I just didn' feel like hanging around someone and their girlfriend and another guy, makes me feel stupid.
My mom put my uncle in Rehab the other day so she's been a bit sad and everything. My Grandma calls non stop and she's anoying me, love er to death, anoys me it's the way it is with me.
I don't know whats wrong really, I'm fine I've been having good times I just don't feel up to doing anything right now, I'm depressed I want to I want to go somewhere and curl up and stay there for a while, I need a Vacation from San Diego. I miss Leslie, and I miss alot of my old friends lately, I don't know the more I start to thnk of things the pointless it gets. I mean people complain about how they don't have friends and things of that sort, and they forget that I never stoped caring, it's like I'm not here all together. Everyone makes me feel invissible, and i guess it's this thinking that gets me stepped on.
Anyway people that have been here. Love you Val, Summer, that other dude I forget his name, haha, Shorty she's awsome. and i guess thats it for now. Have a good day everyone.