Keep a diary and someday it will keep you
Things have been going relatively well lately, but it's very odd to think about this being my last semester at school. If you know me at all, you know that I like to plan ahead, so I think not having a job/plan for a job/any idea of what job I would want is making me a little uncomfortable. I think my life has become very routine, it's a routine that I like but I have an intense wanderulust or desire to shake things up. But at the same time, I'm wary of graduation because I'm going to have to go somewhere and have things change. Basically, I'm a walking contradiction.
Overheard in the union: The only thing I hate more than Title XIV is the nineteenth amendment.
Oh random kid, I wonder if you were joking or if you were serious.
I'm coming to terms with the fact that some things are never going to be quite the way I imagined them. Maybe that's for the best. I have to think that there must be a better life for me than even the one I could have imagined. I keep thinking about my life in future terms, which is silly. Life doesn't happen in the future. Life is happening now and by seeing it just as a step toward my real life is discounting all the wonderful things that have happened. I need to start living more in the present, taking more risks, and planning for life to continue (not start!) in the future.
I'll change the present because I can't change the future. I need to take more risks, put myself on the line more often, like the cliche "nothing ventured, nothing gained." Do I settle for alright when I could have better? Am I afraid to try because I'm afraid to fail? I really do need to start applying for jobs, for one, but I am sure there are a lot of other things. Or maybe I'll just snuggle up on the couch with the olympics and a good friend.
“I will not play tug o' war. I'd rather play hug o' war. Where everyone hugs instead of tugs, Where everyone giggles and rolls on the rug, Where everyone kisses, and everyone grins, and everyone cuddles, and everyone wins.” Shel Silverstein
Overheard in the union: The only thing I hate more than Title XIV is the nineteenth amendment.
Oh random kid, I wonder if you were joking or if you were serious.
I'm coming to terms with the fact that some things are never going to be quite the way I imagined them. Maybe that's for the best. I have to think that there must be a better life for me than even the one I could have imagined. I keep thinking about my life in future terms, which is silly. Life doesn't happen in the future. Life is happening now and by seeing it just as a step toward my real life is discounting all the wonderful things that have happened. I need to start living more in the present, taking more risks, and planning for life to continue (not start!) in the future.
I'll change the present because I can't change the future. I need to take more risks, put myself on the line more often, like the cliche "nothing ventured, nothing gained." Do I settle for alright when I could have better? Am I afraid to try because I'm afraid to fail? I really do need to start applying for jobs, for one, but I am sure there are a lot of other things. Or maybe I'll just snuggle up on the couch with the olympics and a good friend.
“I will not play tug o' war. I'd rather play hug o' war. Where everyone hugs instead of tugs, Where everyone giggles and rolls on the rug, Where everyone kisses, and everyone grins, and everyone cuddles, and everyone wins.” Shel Silverstein