Mar 20, 2010 19:10
God, do I hate that word.
It might have been a little about that. The core of it was more, trying to explain, to make someone understand why I took something so personally, not to bind them to some promise in a hypothetical future. Not to argue whether or not I was capable of something, but to offer, freely and friendly, something I enjoy doing. And it became an argument about specifics, and I tried to get to the more general situation, which becomes arguing about hypotheticals, which is almost worse than useless.
In a funny sort of way, it's another situation reversed - in which it's too late to change anything, and I am trying to explain the needs of a situation, and I find comments taken personally in a way I didn't anticipate.
But it was also the same situation, where I spend a lot of effort finding different ways of explaining something. From this perspective, boilerplate responses and platitudes are doubly frustrating, and it's exactly the thing that prods me to keep trying to find a work-around. And it's a situation I find for myself way too often, when I'm trying to solve the problem of explaining or figuring out some personal triviality long after everyone else has (and probably should have) stopped caring.
And since I'm navel-gazing anyways, is there anything I can do about that? (besides saving things up for LiveJournal)
philosophy,
angst